This morning around 9:45 am onwards, PIE super jam from upper bt timah exit all the way to whitley... think got 3 different accidents... the third one was terrible... bus, lorry, trucks, cars all banged up and lying at different slanted positions across lanes.... i was super late for meeting!
When I enter from jalan anak bukit, the traffic was already snailing and out of the blue i saw a traffic police bmw beside me... i thot siao liao, siao liao, i was driving on the part of the road where I was not supposed to drive on (a triangle with diagonal white lines that u can see when you come from a slip road into the highway road)... however, all the cars behind me and beside me very steady also continue to drive on with the bmw beside us... soon i saw an accident ahead and the bmw just drove ahead, slid the car in front of me at an angle and stopped.... a man in blue came out purposefully, put one hand up and wave at me to drive on, he had this unforgettable serious look on his face.... fwah i tell u man! he looked damn steady and sexy! At that very moment i realised I LIKE MEN IN UNIFORM!!!! make me flipped, swoooooooonn......
hokay i got to the office in one piece... didn't just fainted in my car when i saw the policeman... but seriously i think i may like going on a date with a policeman hahaha
Thursday, 16 December 2010
Friday, 10 December 2010
blackie, flat and new beginning for 2011
Oh boy, oh boy. Meng will be coming over and he is bringing Blackie. Blackie is back! Who is Blackie??? Hahaha. Blackie is Meng's old Honda CRX. Sold to his friend and his friend is selling it back to him because the fren's mom bought herself a Merc and gave him her old car. Fwah, good mom.
Okie, Blackie is beautiful but I understand Blackie is now very dirty and smelly. Told Meng to give Blackie a good bath. Meng said will give it a thorough dettol bath. Blackie the name sounds like a dog rite? Hehehe.
I just bought a resale flat. PAID A BLOODY HIGH PRICE FOR IT! What can I do? The bloody valuation is so high and nobody is selling below valuation. Located 5 mins from where I stay now. Hehehe.... I only want to stay around this region coz it is convenient for me and Ben.
Flat was renovated 12 years ago. But the inside looks quite obiang. So many colours... let's see, got purple wardrobes, glossy deep blue kitchen cabinets, complicated cornices, black colour opaque windows, sky blue ceilings and more. For me, it is very simple: I just want neutral colours e.g. lily white, cream, beige, white and some blacks. I will be spending some money to salvage "the look" and make it more personal and to invoke a cosy feeling.
There is a huge open air carpark behind this block, therefore the view from the kitchen are all trees and a carpark, no blocking by anything. Wheeee, I can walk naked in my bedroom, e.g. come out naked from the bathroom if I forget my bath towel. From the front door, it is the road (not a major road) so again it is not blocked. On the whole, I think this block and this unit is not bad. Actually, I have always liked this block. The best thing is that, it is 2 blocks away from the old flat I used to rent (from the Malay guy). Therefore, I am very very familiar with this location and I feel very at home. I only hope Ben will grow to like it. I also hope this flat will bring me lots of deals and $$$$. The Malay guy's flat was very good. I closed many deals when I was staying there. It was only a year ago that I moved out from it after staying there for 3 years. Coffee shop and Shop n Save are just one block away. We can dine at Sunset Way more often (we haven't been to Sunset Way since moving to King Albert Park, coz we now go to Upper Bukit Timah eateries near Courts all the time). Now Ben walks to and eats at Mac and Bukit Timah market most of the time.
Okie... that's all for today. I kena one traffic offence which I also dunno how come I can get it. Sian jit puah liao.
Okie, Blackie is beautiful but I understand Blackie is now very dirty and smelly. Told Meng to give Blackie a good bath. Meng said will give it a thorough dettol bath. Blackie the name sounds like a dog rite? Hehehe.
I just bought a resale flat. PAID A BLOODY HIGH PRICE FOR IT! What can I do? The bloody valuation is so high and nobody is selling below valuation. Located 5 mins from where I stay now. Hehehe.... I only want to stay around this region coz it is convenient for me and Ben.
Flat was renovated 12 years ago. But the inside looks quite obiang. So many colours... let's see, got purple wardrobes, glossy deep blue kitchen cabinets, complicated cornices, black colour opaque windows, sky blue ceilings and more. For me, it is very simple: I just want neutral colours e.g. lily white, cream, beige, white and some blacks. I will be spending some money to salvage "the look" and make it more personal and to invoke a cosy feeling.
There is a huge open air carpark behind this block, therefore the view from the kitchen are all trees and a carpark, no blocking by anything. Wheeee, I can walk naked in my bedroom, e.g. come out naked from the bathroom if I forget my bath towel. From the front door, it is the road (not a major road) so again it is not blocked. On the whole, I think this block and this unit is not bad. Actually, I have always liked this block. The best thing is that, it is 2 blocks away from the old flat I used to rent (from the Malay guy). Therefore, I am very very familiar with this location and I feel very at home. I only hope Ben will grow to like it. I also hope this flat will bring me lots of deals and $$$$. The Malay guy's flat was very good. I closed many deals when I was staying there. It was only a year ago that I moved out from it after staying there for 3 years. Coffee shop and Shop n Save are just one block away. We can dine at Sunset Way more often (we haven't been to Sunset Way since moving to King Albert Park, coz we now go to Upper Bukit Timah eateries near Courts all the time). Now Ben walks to and eats at Mac and Bukit Timah market most of the time.
Okie... that's all for today. I kena one traffic offence which I also dunno how come I can get it. Sian jit puah liao.
Wednesday, 24 November 2010
new year coming soon... akan datang...
What is my new year's resolution for 2011? Geez, I really can't wait for the new year to come. I want to put 2010 behind me as fast as possible. 2010 has been a trying and difficult year. So many bad things happened to me. Currently, I am in the midst of a very stressful problem.
I know that I want good health, make more money, improve myself, read more books, dress smarter (improve image lah!), attend courses, change my mindset, be more tough and fierce, etc.
Will do up the list soon. Looking up and looking ahead!
2011 faster come!
I know that I want good health, make more money, improve myself, read more books, dress smarter (improve image lah!), attend courses, change my mindset, be more tough and fierce, etc.
Will do up the list soon. Looking up and looking ahead!
2011 faster come!
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
the angst and pangs of a 16 year old teenager
On somedays I have to put up with ben's temperamental behaviour. One minute very upset, another minute super elated until the sky is the limit. Today, he had E. Math paper 2 and he came home happy like a bird. Yesterday, was a horrid day for me coz he went on and on about losing some marks off his E.Math paper 1 and I had to tell him to "please move on". Hiya, the ups and downs of a teenager sitting for his O level exams.
Hokay, now about me. I am so sleepy and tired most of the time coz I have to wake up early every morning, be it shocked out of bed by ben or my handphone rings or by some other things.
I am still waiting for meng to change some credit card points into shopping vouchers for me. He is just sooooo slow.
I am so looking forward to 2011 because I want to start all over again in the new year. I will start thinking about new resolutions for next year soon.
Hokay, now about me. I am so sleepy and tired most of the time coz I have to wake up early every morning, be it shocked out of bed by ben or my handphone rings or by some other things.
I am still waiting for meng to change some credit card points into shopping vouchers for me. He is just sooooo slow.
I am so looking forward to 2011 because I want to start all over again in the new year. I will start thinking about new resolutions for next year soon.
Monday, 25 October 2010
oh happy day happy day happy day
my birdday today
ben sitting for his english paper at this very moment
he bought me a bouquet of flowers from 6th ave 3 days ago coz he said he wun be free to buy it on my birdday
meng at the car workshop changing suspension... his fren wants to buy his car coz all his frens know his car condition good good one........ DUN EVEN WAN/NEED/BOTHER TO TEST DRIVE
in fact, ALL his ex-cars are sold to his close frens
meng will be coming over soon.... he is going to bring me some shopping vouchers
will ask him buy cake for me so i can light up the candles
so sleepy.... woke up very early today for ben
ben sitting for his english paper at this very moment
he bought me a bouquet of flowers from 6th ave 3 days ago coz he said he wun be free to buy it on my birdday
meng at the car workshop changing suspension... his fren wants to buy his car coz all his frens know his car condition good good one........ DUN EVEN WAN/NEED/BOTHER TO TEST DRIVE
in fact, ALL his ex-cars are sold to his close frens
meng will be coming over soon.... he is going to bring me some shopping vouchers
will ask him buy cake for me so i can light up the candles
so sleepy.... woke up very early today for ben
Thursday, 21 October 2010
akan datang
My birthday is next week. Dun ask me how old I am :) hehehe...
When I reminded Meng about it, he asked me what I want for my birthday.
Hehehe. I haven't decided. Maybe a set of instructional cds to teach me how to play solo on electric guitars... some impressive chops to impress people hurhurhur :0
OR...
A handbag.
I have a handbag fetish.
My birthday wish is of course for Ben to perform well for O level exams. He is getting more and more nervous day by day so I have to assure him he will do very well (I have faith in him lah).
My next wish is that we find a good property to buy soon.
When I reminded Meng about it, he asked me what I want for my birthday.
Hehehe. I haven't decided. Maybe a set of instructional cds to teach me how to play solo on electric guitars... some impressive chops to impress people hurhurhur :0
OR...
A handbag.
I have a handbag fetish.
My birthday wish is of course for Ben to perform well for O level exams. He is getting more and more nervous day by day so I have to assure him he will do very well (I have faith in him lah).
My next wish is that we find a good property to buy soon.
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
trying to get a hold of myself again
Sometimes, I feel like my life is orbitting out of control and I do say this out loud to Meng. "Meng, I feel like I am losing control of my life." Of course, Meng went ahead and rubbished my feelings.
I can't lose control of my life now coz next week is Ben's O level exams. I have to sleep early every night so that I do not wake up feeling groggy in the morning. In case Ben wakes up late and starts panicking, I will have to be ready to rush him out to the exam venue in my car.
It is already October. 2010 is coming to a close soon so no point feeling like "fwah sian lah, this year not really making enough money and should have worked harder" that kind of feeling. I told myself no regrets lah, work harder and smarter next year, move on.
Washing car in the basement washing bay is becoming a breeze after I got all the right gears. I bought a 4m long water hose $4, two tap heads $4.90 (fortunately bought the right sizes), a sponge mop with a metre long handle $7.50, found a small chair in the basement, got 2 pails, a brush and a bottle of car shampoo. It used to be that I have to go upstairs to the guard's counter to borrow the tap heads and also have to find a furniture to step on to reach a water tap located about 2.5m off ground. Washing car was then a chore. And without the hose, the water pressure which is out of whack would cause the water to splash all over my body. The first time I tried washing my car, I hated it. I was a complete mess after the car wash. Thereafter, I thought I better go out and buy the gears. Now, I only pray and hope that the residents will not complain about me using the water hose to wash my car (which I know in some condos, you are not allowed to). I don't know about other people, but I love playing with water.
My car looks very clean :)
Recently, I tidied up my bedroom and re-arranged the bedroom furniture. My room now looks very pleasant. Ben loves coming over to my room while I work and plonk himself on my bed and complain loudly that he is hungry (seems like forever hungry..... must be exams anxiety). Think he will do well lah, dunno why he is so jittery, last time I wasn't that prepared for my O level exams!!!
Okie, I am heading to the nearby Cold Storage to buy pre-cooked ribs, wings, sushi, etc for Ben to eat..... bye!
I can't lose control of my life now coz next week is Ben's O level exams. I have to sleep early every night so that I do not wake up feeling groggy in the morning. In case Ben wakes up late and starts panicking, I will have to be ready to rush him out to the exam venue in my car.
It is already October. 2010 is coming to a close soon so no point feeling like "fwah sian lah, this year not really making enough money and should have worked harder" that kind of feeling. I told myself no regrets lah, work harder and smarter next year, move on.
Washing car in the basement washing bay is becoming a breeze after I got all the right gears. I bought a 4m long water hose $4, two tap heads $4.90 (fortunately bought the right sizes), a sponge mop with a metre long handle $7.50, found a small chair in the basement, got 2 pails, a brush and a bottle of car shampoo. It used to be that I have to go upstairs to the guard's counter to borrow the tap heads and also have to find a furniture to step on to reach a water tap located about 2.5m off ground. Washing car was then a chore. And without the hose, the water pressure which is out of whack would cause the water to splash all over my body. The first time I tried washing my car, I hated it. I was a complete mess after the car wash. Thereafter, I thought I better go out and buy the gears. Now, I only pray and hope that the residents will not complain about me using the water hose to wash my car (which I know in some condos, you are not allowed to). I don't know about other people, but I love playing with water.
My car looks very clean :)
Recently, I tidied up my bedroom and re-arranged the bedroom furniture. My room now looks very pleasant. Ben loves coming over to my room while I work and plonk himself on my bed and complain loudly that he is hungry (seems like forever hungry..... must be exams anxiety). Think he will do well lah, dunno why he is so jittery, last time I wasn't that prepared for my O level exams!!!
Okie, I am heading to the nearby Cold Storage to buy pre-cooked ribs, wings, sushi, etc for Ben to eat..... bye!
Thursday, 14 October 2010
restless soul
feeling so restless and feeling like my life is worth nothing... sigh... so pms
maybe time to head to the library for some reading and borrowing of books
maybe time to stop procrastinating about the things that I have put off doing for a while
maybe time to start dressing up again
maybe this, maybe that, aiyoh
TIME TO STOP BEING SO POR POR MAH MAH
Ben's O level exams starts next week so time to buck up and stay strong
maybe time to head to the library for some reading and borrowing of books
maybe time to stop procrastinating about the things that I have put off doing for a while
maybe time to start dressing up again
maybe this, maybe that, aiyoh
TIME TO STOP BEING SO POR POR MAH MAH
Ben's O level exams starts next week so time to buck up and stay strong
Monday, 4 October 2010
quickie
Just a quick post before I go shower and go off to lalaland ZZZzzzzz.
I am supportive of Meng selling his sports car. He is going to do a full de-mod in a couple of days. The de-mod stuff can fetch him around $8-10k. Thereafter, he will put up the car as a normal REX for sale at market price. Car's condition is already very good. I call it "showroom condition". I am not kidding. Meng is a very ngiao person. He had spent alot of time and money on grooming his car. The buyer will never regret buying over his car.
MARANATHA. Gee, so freaking that our MM who is not a christian is using a biblical phrase to chant to calm him down from the stress of watching over his wife who was bedridden and unable to talk for the past two years. The wife had just passed away. RIP Mrs Lee.
I am so going to say "maranatha" to lull myself to sleep. Christians don't practise chanting per se but we are taught to pray unceasingly and to give thanks for everything, good or bad. I see no problem in saying "Oh Lord Jesus, come to me" as it is definitely very affirmative and like what MM said, this aramic phrase sounds very soothing.
It is time to stop being emo regarding Ben.
Just now I went down with Meng to the basement carpark - he to drive his car home and me to pick up my laptop from my car boot. I stood there transfixed listening to the sound of his powerful car engine and turbo, VROOM VROOM VROOM VROOM..... VROOM VROOM VROOM at least a good 20 secs before he drove up the ramp, out of the carpark and out of my sight. I shall miss this REX when it is sold. I get very emo whenever me or my partner sells off a car because I get very attached to every car we had. Triumph Spitfire MKII, Alfa Romeo Alfatta GT, Alfa Romeo Boxer 1.7IE, Honda CRX and even my other modest Japanese cars I also get very emo. Next it will be this beautiful cockeye Subaru WRX in its full glory (beautifully modded by Meng). I will tell Meng to let me say a last goodbye to this car before it goes to the new buyer.
I am supportive of Meng selling his sports car. He is going to do a full de-mod in a couple of days. The de-mod stuff can fetch him around $8-10k. Thereafter, he will put up the car as a normal REX for sale at market price. Car's condition is already very good. I call it "showroom condition". I am not kidding. Meng is a very ngiao person. He had spent alot of time and money on grooming his car. The buyer will never regret buying over his car.
MARANATHA. Gee, so freaking that our MM who is not a christian is using a biblical phrase to chant to calm him down from the stress of watching over his wife who was bedridden and unable to talk for the past two years. The wife had just passed away. RIP Mrs Lee.
I am so going to say "maranatha" to lull myself to sleep. Christians don't practise chanting per se but we are taught to pray unceasingly and to give thanks for everything, good or bad. I see no problem in saying "Oh Lord Jesus, come to me" as it is definitely very affirmative and like what MM said, this aramic phrase sounds very soothing.
It is time to stop being emo regarding Ben.
Just now I went down with Meng to the basement carpark - he to drive his car home and me to pick up my laptop from my car boot. I stood there transfixed listening to the sound of his powerful car engine and turbo, VROOM VROOM VROOM VROOM..... VROOM VROOM VROOM at least a good 20 secs before he drove up the ramp, out of the carpark and out of my sight. I shall miss this REX when it is sold. I get very emo whenever me or my partner sells off a car because I get very attached to every car we had. Triumph Spitfire MKII, Alfa Romeo Alfatta GT, Alfa Romeo Boxer 1.7IE, Honda CRX and even my other modest Japanese cars I also get very emo. Next it will be this beautiful cockeye Subaru WRX in its full glory (beautifully modded by Meng). I will tell Meng to let me say a last goodbye to this car before it goes to the new buyer.
Friday, 1 October 2010
wtf
I am getting increasingly bored with my life and falling easily into mild depression. Ben, my 16 year old son, is mostly the cause of all my heartaches and depression. The amount of sacrifices I have to put up and the unjustly things he can say to me, is beyond my imagination. How could he not be kinder and be more considerate to his mother?? Such as helping to clean and pack the apartment instead of telling me I haven't packed and cleaned to his liking??? WTF!!!!I am his mother, and he is not my mother, period. He is pure lazy yet he dared to nitpick at me!!! I don't believe all these. My mother is to be blamed. Ben learned most of the tone and nitpicking language from her.
I am an active person and to be at home most of the time to be a good mother is getting very boring for me. AND UNREWARDING. FUCK.
I prefer to live life on the fast lane. I love to be doing things and making money and enjoying life. Who doesn't????
I am going to plan my life for myself the way I see fit.
Life has gone on a vicious cycle for too long. Fuck it!
I am an active person and to be at home most of the time to be a good mother is getting very boring for me. AND UNREWARDING. FUCK.
I prefer to live life on the fast lane. I love to be doing things and making money and enjoying life. Who doesn't????
I am going to plan my life for myself the way I see fit.
Life has gone on a vicious cycle for too long. Fuck it!
Tuesday, 21 September 2010
GCE O Level
Ah Ben is going to sit for his O level exams next month. Triple science, 2 maths, 1 humanities and 2 languages. 1 language - chinese, already cleared on first take.... C6 and he is already so happi pom pipi. KNS, these ACS boys all cannot make it for chinese one. The Chinese teacher told those who passed with C6 not to bother to try again.
Ok for prelims, Ah Ben hit 9 pts for best 6 subjects (L1 R5). 4 A1, 1 A2 and 1 B3. Not bad... actualli come to think of it, already quite good lah. If Ah Ben continue like this for O level exams, I also very happi pom pipi.
So wat is the good supportive mom doing for him now?
The good mom is actualli not so good most of the time. Becoz have to go out and work for a living so nvr have time to realli cook proper meals for Ah Ben. As a result, Ah Ben is realli very skinny. In fact, underweight. So in order for Ah Ben to have more brain power and more carbo so that he can tahan the challenging O level exams, mommy is cooking meals for him everyday. Now mommy practise time management. Juggle career and mommy-homemaker duties at the same time. Aiyah dun realli wan to care abt work for the next 1.5 months. Just make sure Ah Ben does well for O level. In fact, there is a subsidized holiday retreat to Phuket organised by mommy's company, but mommy has turned it down so that mommy can stay by ah ben's side whilst he does his O level exams. As it turns out, yes ah ben does not want mommy to go for that retreat becoz he needs mommy's moral support (in person) and rah rah cheerleading. Never underestimate the importance of mothers' presence at the most crucial milestones in their children's lives. Maybe I should have been a psychologist.....
Anywayz the good mommy is going to bed now. Tomorrow another long day to juggle work and home duties.
Ok for prelims, Ah Ben hit 9 pts for best 6 subjects (L1 R5). 4 A1, 1 A2 and 1 B3. Not bad... actualli come to think of it, already quite good lah. If Ah Ben continue like this for O level exams, I also very happi pom pipi.
So wat is the good supportive mom doing for him now?
The good mom is actualli not so good most of the time. Becoz have to go out and work for a living so nvr have time to realli cook proper meals for Ah Ben. As a result, Ah Ben is realli very skinny. In fact, underweight. So in order for Ah Ben to have more brain power and more carbo so that he can tahan the challenging O level exams, mommy is cooking meals for him everyday. Now mommy practise time management. Juggle career and mommy-homemaker duties at the same time. Aiyah dun realli wan to care abt work for the next 1.5 months. Just make sure Ah Ben does well for O level. In fact, there is a subsidized holiday retreat to Phuket organised by mommy's company, but mommy has turned it down so that mommy can stay by ah ben's side whilst he does his O level exams. As it turns out, yes ah ben does not want mommy to go for that retreat becoz he needs mommy's moral support (in person) and rah rah cheerleading. Never underestimate the importance of mothers' presence at the most crucial milestones in their children's lives. Maybe I should have been a psychologist.....
Anywayz the good mommy is going to bed now. Tomorrow another long day to juggle work and home duties.
Monday, 13 September 2010
Do you love your mom?
(This is a very negative post. Don't read it if you do not want to spoil your day.)
Hey, do you love your mom? I do but somehow my mom always try her level best to make my life very difficult. I am serious. During the crucial stages of my life, she is there to destroy it. Oh gosh, why do I say such negative things about her? I do love her, I do. When I was young, I tried my level best to win her acceptance and love but one day, I think I must have been around aged 13 or 14, I came to a realisation that it will never happen so there and then I gave up the idea. Since she has always derided me and ridiculed my efforts at doing well in school and even went as far as insulting me that I cannot sing and I have no musical talent, I gave up trying to win her approval and henceforth I work hard for myself, only for myself. My success is for myself. Whatever achievements I made in school or outside, I kept the news to myself. In adulthood, I am convinced my mother does not want me to succeed in life.
If not for the fact that I became a Christian at a very young age (nobody forced me to, my family were not christians) and for the love that the Lord had given me and God's eyes upon me, I would have gone to jump down from the highest story of a HDB block. My childhood was rather miserable and sad. I was my mother's scapegoat for every wrong thing my big sister did. I was scolded and punished for I-also-dunno-what-I-had-done-wrong.
One day, I could not take it any longer (think I was in Sec 4). So I became rebellious and stood up to all her scoldings and challenged her back. Of cos, she scolded me more and said Jesus have taught me to be rude to my parents. I can never win. If children are physically or verbally abused and psychological tormented, how do they protect themselves? No way because they are children and vulnerable to the actions of the adults. Cos children do not know where to run to.
Mind you, when I was young, there were many older people who told me I have an above-average intelligence. Even my own late hub who was a doctor, said so.
I don't understand my own mother. Really.
There are only few instances I recalled that she had made tremendous efforts to help me.
My mother is the domineering, control-freak type. I have always always envied my friends who have soft-spoken mothers. I wish I had a mom like theirs.
Here is a very touching story about a very wonderful, hardworking and uneducated mom. I so wished to have a mom like that who really cared about my studies. This story is very emo.... hehe I warned you so.
http://www.kiasuparents.com/kiasu/content/days-i-made-my-mother-cry
However, I am trying my level best to love my mother because she is in her 60s now. Already old. I am trying to forget the past and the hurts contributed by her.
Today, my small sister was complaining so much about mom. Mom and small sister are staying under one roof in my big brother's HDB maisonette. Big sister is not well and also staying there and mom taking care of her. Mom is stressed out and giving hell to everybody there. Big quarrels going on between all of them and separately among them. I feel sad. Just when I am letting go and bringing myself to love her more, here comes more reminders of how difficult my mom was towards me.
As far as my relationship with my son goes, I consciously do not do what my mother has done to me when I was young.
You may have heard it already, when I was young, I loved playing the piano very much but one day, my mom terminated my lessons (INSTANTLY!!!) by giving 2 lame excuses that I was rude to her and that I do not like music.
To my young mind, the impression was formed inside my head that whatever I loved and liked, she will surely take it away from me to punish me and to make me hurt the most. Sad for a young child I was then.
Sigh, she is afterall my mom. I do love her, still.
(I wish my mom gets to read this post. I dunno if she ever realised what I had to go thru in childhood and teenage years.)
Hey, do you love your mom? I do but somehow my mom always try her level best to make my life very difficult. I am serious. During the crucial stages of my life, she is there to destroy it. Oh gosh, why do I say such negative things about her? I do love her, I do. When I was young, I tried my level best to win her acceptance and love but one day, I think I must have been around aged 13 or 14, I came to a realisation that it will never happen so there and then I gave up the idea. Since she has always derided me and ridiculed my efforts at doing well in school and even went as far as insulting me that I cannot sing and I have no musical talent, I gave up trying to win her approval and henceforth I work hard for myself, only for myself. My success is for myself. Whatever achievements I made in school or outside, I kept the news to myself. In adulthood, I am convinced my mother does not want me to succeed in life.
If not for the fact that I became a Christian at a very young age (nobody forced me to, my family were not christians) and for the love that the Lord had given me and God's eyes upon me, I would have gone to jump down from the highest story of a HDB block. My childhood was rather miserable and sad. I was my mother's scapegoat for every wrong thing my big sister did. I was scolded and punished for I-also-dunno-what-I-had-done-wrong.
One day, I could not take it any longer (think I was in Sec 4). So I became rebellious and stood up to all her scoldings and challenged her back. Of cos, she scolded me more and said Jesus have taught me to be rude to my parents. I can never win. If children are physically or verbally abused and psychological tormented, how do they protect themselves? No way because they are children and vulnerable to the actions of the adults. Cos children do not know where to run to.
Mind you, when I was young, there were many older people who told me I have an above-average intelligence. Even my own late hub who was a doctor, said so.
I don't understand my own mother. Really.
There are only few instances I recalled that she had made tremendous efforts to help me.
My mother is the domineering, control-freak type. I have always always envied my friends who have soft-spoken mothers. I wish I had a mom like theirs.
Here is a very touching story about a very wonderful, hardworking and uneducated mom. I so wished to have a mom like that who really cared about my studies. This story is very emo.... hehe I warned you so.
http://www.kiasuparents.com/kiasu/content/days-i-made-my-mother-cry
However, I am trying my level best to love my mother because she is in her 60s now. Already old. I am trying to forget the past and the hurts contributed by her.
Today, my small sister was complaining so much about mom. Mom and small sister are staying under one roof in my big brother's HDB maisonette. Big sister is not well and also staying there and mom taking care of her. Mom is stressed out and giving hell to everybody there. Big quarrels going on between all of them and separately among them. I feel sad. Just when I am letting go and bringing myself to love her more, here comes more reminders of how difficult my mom was towards me.
As far as my relationship with my son goes, I consciously do not do what my mother has done to me when I was young.
You may have heard it already, when I was young, I loved playing the piano very much but one day, my mom terminated my lessons (INSTANTLY!!!) by giving 2 lame excuses that I was rude to her and that I do not like music.
To my young mind, the impression was formed inside my head that whatever I loved and liked, she will surely take it away from me to punish me and to make me hurt the most. Sad for a young child I was then.
Sigh, she is afterall my mom. I do love her, still.
(I wish my mom gets to read this post. I dunno if she ever realised what I had to go thru in childhood and teenage years.)
Thursday, 9 September 2010
I want this!
A green pineapple-shaped ukulele.
You say: Wat????
Yes, Ukulele. A small hawaiian guitar with 4 strings.
My late father played the ukulele very well and we used to have several of them at home when I was young. I don't know why I never learnt how to play it from my dad.
The sound of an ukulele is a very happy and chirpy sound. For the most famous example of the sound, please listen to "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz.
Okie, so now you get it. Nice rite?
I have told Meng I want one. He said okie.
Apparently, there is a ukulele craze brewing in Singapore.
Check out: ukulelemovement.com
You say: Wat????
Yes, Ukulele. A small hawaiian guitar with 4 strings.
My late father played the ukulele very well and we used to have several of them at home when I was young. I don't know why I never learnt how to play it from my dad.
The sound of an ukulele is a very happy and chirpy sound. For the most famous example of the sound, please listen to "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz.
Okie, so now you get it. Nice rite?
I have told Meng I want one. He said okie.
Apparently, there is a ukulele craze brewing in Singapore.
Check out: ukulelemovement.com
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
gym
I took my fat ass off the chair and went to the gym!
Gym is just 4 floors down the lift (lift is just 10 steps from my front door), walk out of the lift upon reaching 1st floor, make a turn to the left, walk out to the outdoor pathway, about 20 steps later, I reach the gym door. However, the gym is always locked (dun understand lock for what? keep residents out of the gym?? siao bo??). So, another 50 steps are needed to reach the guard counter at the front of the condo and sign in for the key and 2 aircon remote controls, and then make my way back to the gym (another 50 steps needed).
After gym, still have to walk back to the guard counter to return the key and remote controls.... kanasai!
From my bedroom window, 4 floors down, the gym is directly on the opposite side. Somehow, this wonderful view of the gym everyday has not made me more motivated to keep fit. The tennis court can be seen directly outside my living room window but it has not made ah boy want to play tennis everyday. I do wonder why we are living in a condo.
I desperately need to lose weight... the reason why I went to the gym today.
I need a gym partner so that he/she can motivate me to keep going. Meng is too lazy to gym or do anything. Most of the time, I see him sleeping or watching the telly. Months ago, we tried swimming regularly but soon the habit died a premature death. Bloody Meng, he is very fit but I am getting too fat! (Meng is fit because he plays soccer regularly.) The whole pool is visible from my bedroom window as well, but aaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhh, I am damn bloody lazy!!!!!
Somebody please slap my butt!
Gym is just 4 floors down the lift (lift is just 10 steps from my front door), walk out of the lift upon reaching 1st floor, make a turn to the left, walk out to the outdoor pathway, about 20 steps later, I reach the gym door. However, the gym is always locked (dun understand lock for what? keep residents out of the gym?? siao bo??). So, another 50 steps are needed to reach the guard counter at the front of the condo and sign in for the key and 2 aircon remote controls, and then make my way back to the gym (another 50 steps needed).
After gym, still have to walk back to the guard counter to return the key and remote controls.... kanasai!
From my bedroom window, 4 floors down, the gym is directly on the opposite side. Somehow, this wonderful view of the gym everyday has not made me more motivated to keep fit. The tennis court can be seen directly outside my living room window but it has not made ah boy want to play tennis everyday. I do wonder why we are living in a condo.
I desperately need to lose weight... the reason why I went to the gym today.
I need a gym partner so that he/she can motivate me to keep going. Meng is too lazy to gym or do anything. Most of the time, I see him sleeping or watching the telly. Months ago, we tried swimming regularly but soon the habit died a premature death. Bloody Meng, he is very fit but I am getting too fat! (Meng is fit because he plays soccer regularly.) The whole pool is visible from my bedroom window as well, but aaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhh, I am damn bloody lazy!!!!!
Somebody please slap my butt!
Saturday, 28 August 2010
i have no life
i think facebook is hopeless.......... i think i may delete off my facebook account.... i don't see my "friends" writing very interesting or funny stuff.... maybe when you are all grown up, you are more inhibited or you truly hide your feelings behind that pretty picture you post on your facebook, afraid of people discovering who you really are or what a prick you are to your friends, whatever........... hahaha, let me tell you a secret, i love reading my ah boy's facebook page whenever he forgets to sign out.... children! they say the most straight-in-your-face disgustingly funny stuff to their friends, and they also make fun of themselves alot and give themselves funny middle names
i am going broke, honest
i am going fat.......... fret not, i told myself the moment i reach the point of the unbearable likeness of being, i will move into action.......... e.g swim, jog, run, gym, roller-blade, golf, etc etc
my eldest sister is recuperating from surgery and i sincerely hope she recovers quickly
i am sleepy and tired as i didn't get enough sleep last nite
boy, is my life getting too boring??? sat nite and i am sitting in front of my computer and meng has just told me he is going out for a little while to be with the guys and will be back at 2 am.... i told him i am going to bed soon
i am going broke, honest
i am going fat.......... fret not, i told myself the moment i reach the point of the unbearable likeness of being, i will move into action.......... e.g swim, jog, run, gym, roller-blade, golf, etc etc
my eldest sister is recuperating from surgery and i sincerely hope she recovers quickly
i am sleepy and tired as i didn't get enough sleep last nite
boy, is my life getting too boring??? sat nite and i am sitting in front of my computer and meng has just told me he is going out for a little while to be with the guys and will be back at 2 am.... i told him i am going to bed soon
Friday, 27 August 2010
tgif one more time
an hour ago, i was screamed and shouted at on the phone by a client who is also my fren
she is known to be a difficult person
amazingly i am still so calm and cheerful
i told myself to remain humble and to talk gently with her
i declare again, today WILL BE a happy day
she is known to be a difficult person
amazingly i am still so calm and cheerful
i told myself to remain humble and to talk gently with her
i declare again, today WILL BE a happy day
Thursday, 26 August 2010
emo and lazy
I do enjoy reading blogs. Those blogs I read and the bloggers behind them come across as intelligent, observant and witty whereas I am sure if anybody is reading mine, will think, "Aiyoh this ahmo must be quite a boring simpleton and an emo-wreck!" I dunno, maybe I have lost the zest for life. I do admit my blog is boring.
Yes, I have been emo-ing quite a bit lately. I had to apologize to Meng recently because I realised I have been using him as a sounding-board. He complained that I had been blaming him too much. I felt frustrated because of the high prices of HDB flats. I want to buy a 4rm HDB flat. I am very comfortable to be around the region of clementi-sunset way-ulu pandan-king albert park and I want to continue living in this area. The more research I do, the more I get so frightened! Kaozzz so damn expensive leh! Think Meng has tried to be as sweet to me as he can be and has offered his cpf funds and monthly cpf contribution as payments for the flat but somehow, I am really not ready for it. I feel I should buy my own flat and keep it as a heritage for my ah boy. Of course, HDB regulation says two friends can co-own a flat, but still, I don't feel it is the right time for this now. Poor Meng has been suffering verbal assault and psychological torment from me and yet still keep his trap shut! Damn steady!
Thank God that I signed a two years lease on this beautiful condo ah boy and me are living in right now. When I checked the rental prices of HDB flats in the nearby areas, they are at least $2k or more! I panicked! What if we have to pay for higher rentals after our lease expires? We have to quickly find a flat to buy to hedge against rising rentals. The more I worry, the more stressed and upset I get. And poor Meng is a very convenient goat......
Okie I am not going to get stressed up over the BUSINESS of living. I am going to learn how to live and maxed it out. It is tough but worth a try again.... and again.
I must learn to be:-
happy
contented
humble
kind
strong yet gentle
tough but not vengeful
sincere
and above all
always carry a thankful heart and in gratitude to God for everything
Company is organising a phuket trip (but must co-pay). I already told them I am not going coz it is in the midst of ah boy's O level exams. I better be around to give moral support and provide nourishment and food whilst he prepares and sits for his exams. I asked him and he said, "Yes please don't go...."
Yesterday, I was at Bukit Timah Plaza NTUC Fairprice and I saw an interesting ad on their notice board by a organisation known as the Singapore International Festival Chorus. They are recruiting volunteer singers. If you like singing but don't have formal musical training, you are still welcomed. I went to their website and found out that they do classics such as those by Mozart and I think also Haydn, along with more contemporary repertoire. The practice venue is at dover road inside UWC. Check this out: www. singaporeifc.org/about
I have been saying and saying but I haven't started playing the drums yet. I had planned to self-learn from youtube and websites but shit, I am still procrastinating. I want to be able to drum ala phil collins, songs such as In The Air Tonight, Billy Don't You Lose My Number, etc.
The stupid Manila Bus Hostage-Hijack is very tragic. 8 deaths and somemore today in the tabloids got pictures of the victims' coffins being opened by the funeral parlour people for the paparazzees to snap. Gosh, the power of money. No class. And the hopeless police who are haphazard in their rescue operation. There was a report that the authorities should have disabled TV media coverage as the hijacker was able to monitor the whole police "circus" on the tv set inside the bus. Jialat man, like this they are killing off tourism instantly. Who still dares to visit philippines now??? The police cannot even do a proper job of protecting people's lives.
Tomorrow is tgif. I think I will go and swim in the pool downstairs, that is, if I am not lazy, haha. Or even go to the gym, if I am really not lazy, haha.
I must get rid of my tummy fats. It is building up. Soon they may call me the michelin mom? Just like china has the michelin baby, Singapore has me the michelin mom hahaha.... I should do sit ups but I am so lazy.... *piak piak own face*
Better go now and wash up and sleep early. It's been a long day.
Yes, I have been emo-ing quite a bit lately. I had to apologize to Meng recently because I realised I have been using him as a sounding-board. He complained that I had been blaming him too much. I felt frustrated because of the high prices of HDB flats. I want to buy a 4rm HDB flat. I am very comfortable to be around the region of clementi-sunset way-ulu pandan-king albert park and I want to continue living in this area. The more research I do, the more I get so frightened! Kaozzz so damn expensive leh! Think Meng has tried to be as sweet to me as he can be and has offered his cpf funds and monthly cpf contribution as payments for the flat but somehow, I am really not ready for it. I feel I should buy my own flat and keep it as a heritage for my ah boy. Of course, HDB regulation says two friends can co-own a flat, but still, I don't feel it is the right time for this now. Poor Meng has been suffering verbal assault and psychological torment from me and yet still keep his trap shut! Damn steady!
Thank God that I signed a two years lease on this beautiful condo ah boy and me are living in right now. When I checked the rental prices of HDB flats in the nearby areas, they are at least $2k or more! I panicked! What if we have to pay for higher rentals after our lease expires? We have to quickly find a flat to buy to hedge against rising rentals. The more I worry, the more stressed and upset I get. And poor Meng is a very convenient goat......
Okie I am not going to get stressed up over the BUSINESS of living. I am going to learn how to live and maxed it out. It is tough but worth a try again.... and again.
I must learn to be:-
happy
contented
humble
kind
strong yet gentle
tough but not vengeful
sincere
and above all
always carry a thankful heart and in gratitude to God for everything
Company is organising a phuket trip (but must co-pay). I already told them I am not going coz it is in the midst of ah boy's O level exams. I better be around to give moral support and provide nourishment and food whilst he prepares and sits for his exams. I asked him and he said, "Yes please don't go...."
Yesterday, I was at Bukit Timah Plaza NTUC Fairprice and I saw an interesting ad on their notice board by a organisation known as the Singapore International Festival Chorus. They are recruiting volunteer singers. If you like singing but don't have formal musical training, you are still welcomed. I went to their website and found out that they do classics such as those by Mozart and I think also Haydn, along with more contemporary repertoire. The practice venue is at dover road inside UWC. Check this out: www. singaporeifc.org/about
I have been saying and saying but I haven't started playing the drums yet. I had planned to self-learn from youtube and websites but shit, I am still procrastinating. I want to be able to drum ala phil collins, songs such as In The Air Tonight, Billy Don't You Lose My Number, etc.
The stupid Manila Bus Hostage-Hijack is very tragic. 8 deaths and somemore today in the tabloids got pictures of the victims' coffins being opened by the funeral parlour people for the paparazzees to snap. Gosh, the power of money. No class. And the hopeless police who are haphazard in their rescue operation. There was a report that the authorities should have disabled TV media coverage as the hijacker was able to monitor the whole police "circus" on the tv set inside the bus. Jialat man, like this they are killing off tourism instantly. Who still dares to visit philippines now??? The police cannot even do a proper job of protecting people's lives.
Tomorrow is tgif. I think I will go and swim in the pool downstairs, that is, if I am not lazy, haha. Or even go to the gym, if I am really not lazy, haha.
I must get rid of my tummy fats. It is building up. Soon they may call me the michelin mom? Just like china has the michelin baby, Singapore has me the michelin mom hahaha.... I should do sit ups but I am so lazy.... *piak piak own face*
Better go now and wash up and sleep early. It's been a long day.
Monday, 23 August 2010
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
madness
I need to calm down, to remind myself there is no need to worry too much, that many times problems have its own ways of solving by itself without my doing anything about it. Isn't that true in many instances?
I have been looking at hdb flats to buy. I feel so disheartened. The COV (cash over valuation) is getting very ridiculous. How on earth am I going to afford to buy a flat now? I am not even talking about wanting a nicely renovated flat or a high floor unit. In fact, my requirements defy all norms. I don't mind the 3rd or the 4th floor. I like the west sun. Yes I actually like the western sun shining into the flat. I don't mind the road noise. I don't need a renovated unit as I am going to renovate it myself to my liking. But I want the flat to be located in a nice surrounding. I don't want it in a shabby and old estate. So I am prepared to go further from the matured estates. With such low end requirments, I still find it difficult to find a flat. Meanwhile, I see the prices going up up up! Isn't that scary?
Meanwhile, my work is getting more challenging day by day. Clients are becoming more and more difficult as in f--king bitchy. Even my own friends can be equally f--ked up when it comes to money and doing business. What is the world coming to? I shake my head. I asked myself, why on earth am I still so loyal to my friends and always thinking about their interests first? Nobody it seems put others first before themselves anymore. This is the wild world. I should start protecting myself and think more selfishly.
I have been looking at hdb flats to buy. I feel so disheartened. The COV (cash over valuation) is getting very ridiculous. How on earth am I going to afford to buy a flat now? I am not even talking about wanting a nicely renovated flat or a high floor unit. In fact, my requirements defy all norms. I don't mind the 3rd or the 4th floor. I like the west sun. Yes I actually like the western sun shining into the flat. I don't mind the road noise. I don't need a renovated unit as I am going to renovate it myself to my liking. But I want the flat to be located in a nice surrounding. I don't want it in a shabby and old estate. So I am prepared to go further from the matured estates. With such low end requirments, I still find it difficult to find a flat. Meanwhile, I see the prices going up up up! Isn't that scary?
Meanwhile, my work is getting more challenging day by day. Clients are becoming more and more difficult as in f--king bitchy. Even my own friends can be equally f--ked up when it comes to money and doing business. What is the world coming to? I shake my head. I asked myself, why on earth am I still so loyal to my friends and always thinking about their interests first? Nobody it seems put others first before themselves anymore. This is the wild world. I should start protecting myself and think more selfishly.
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
drowning.... who will save me?
feeling as if swimming alone in a big ocean
barely keeping afloat
just me and a stray wooden plank
awww i am getting so tired
my arms are becoming weak
in times like this, i feel like kicking him out of my life
he is of no help
i struggle mostly alone
that's why me and my guitar are good pals
i sing and IT accompanies me
together we make sweet music
and momentarily
i am happy
barely keeping afloat
just me and a stray wooden plank
awww i am getting so tired
my arms are becoming weak
in times like this, i feel like kicking him out of my life
he is of no help
i struggle mostly alone
that's why me and my guitar are good pals
i sing and IT accompanies me
together we make sweet music
and momentarily
i am happy
whimsical wish list
i am thankful for being able to come this far and i am so grateful for life's opportunities that came my way
however i have this feeling......
feeling like time is running out... there are still many things i wan to achieve and do .... here goes:
1. own a mercedes coupe
2. buy an apartment along bt timah or upp bt timah
3. learn to play the drums (i am ready for it now.... drummers out there, share tips with me pls!)
timeline: 3-5 years for no. 1 and 1-3 years for no. 2 and 3
dun slam me yet......... i think it is better to have a dream then to live aimlessly
however i have this feeling......
feeling like time is running out... there are still many things i wan to achieve and do .... here goes:
1. own a mercedes coupe
2. buy an apartment along bt timah or upp bt timah
3. learn to play the drums (i am ready for it now.... drummers out there, share tips with me pls!)
timeline: 3-5 years for no. 1 and 1-3 years for no. 2 and 3
dun slam me yet......... i think it is better to have a dream then to live aimlessly
Friday, 30 July 2010
just checking
Last night at around 9 pm, I went to fetch Ben from school which is on Barker Road near my friend's Gentle Road house. (Good question, what was Ben doing in school at 9 pm? Well, the school premises are open to the Sec 3 and 4 students for studying and revising for exams. There are teachers watching over them and some of them giving extra help and lessons. Ben said some teachers do it voluntarily and of coz some others well well....)
I wanted to wait for Ben on Chancery Lane side of the road instead of making a U turn after coming from Balmoral Road but too bad, the Chancery Lane school carpark was locked so I drove on to Gentle Road (which was a short distance away) to check on my friend. I heard from my other friend that electricity was not restored for many days because the electrical sub-station was submerged in water as it was also built underground. When I came near their house, I saw soft lights in most of the units there. However, I saw all the cars parked along the narrow road outside these two rows of cluster houses. Along the auto gate, I saw a whole row of sandbags. The basement carpark was empty. Guess nobody dare to park there.
I made a U turn back to Bt Timah Road and U turn back to Dunearn Road and then turn into Barker Road. I told Ben about the sandbags I saw outside our friend's house. He said, yes, he saw many homes barricaded with sandbags as if in a warzone. Hahaha such an apt and graphic description.
I have just vacuumed and mopped the whole apartment. I have just thoroughly washed the common bathroom. Now the bathroom is smelling very nice.
It's time to go take a hot shower and go to bed soon. Gosh, I AM tired.
I wanted to wait for Ben on Chancery Lane side of the road instead of making a U turn after coming from Balmoral Road but too bad, the Chancery Lane school carpark was locked so I drove on to Gentle Road (which was a short distance away) to check on my friend. I heard from my other friend that electricity was not restored for many days because the electrical sub-station was submerged in water as it was also built underground. When I came near their house, I saw soft lights in most of the units there. However, I saw all the cars parked along the narrow road outside these two rows of cluster houses. Along the auto gate, I saw a whole row of sandbags. The basement carpark was empty. Guess nobody dare to park there.
I made a U turn back to Bt Timah Road and U turn back to Dunearn Road and then turn into Barker Road. I told Ben about the sandbags I saw outside our friend's house. He said, yes, he saw many homes barricaded with sandbags as if in a warzone. Hahaha such an apt and graphic description.
I have just vacuumed and mopped the whole apartment. I have just thoroughly washed the common bathroom. Now the bathroom is smelling very nice.
It's time to go take a hot shower and go to bed soon. Gosh, I AM tired.
Tuesday, 20 July 2010
gentle road flood
found this photo in the news
my fren's house on the left side
the black car is his bmw suv
this was the house i cleaned on sunday
my fren's house on the left side
the black car is his bmw suv
this was the house i cleaned on sunday
time for golf again
body aching all over........ still recovering from the sunday cleaning..... no longer young so next time i noe i shouldn't strain so hard........ issit becoz i am already not fit??? or maybe it is time i get some exercise????
maybe tomorrow i go golf driving range to hit some balls!!!! haha, high time i go find all my gears, e.g. gloves ( i still have them), shoes (ko-yat already, i have to use my track shoes), golf clothes (aiyo now so fat liao, i have to wear non-golf polo shirt and pants), golf set (hiya passed all my irons and woods to my ex-bf for storing, i dun think i wan to go collect them back, thinking of buying new loose ones from the shops, haha always wanted to buy a Ping brand iron because last time i used my male fren's Ping iron, fwah the flex is damn shiok!). And where are all my store value cards from all sorts of driving ranges??? did i give all of them to my ex-bf????
tomorrow i will ring mark & co. to ask where they are going to practise
i have been working very hard lately and i hardly get a break to relax or breathe
maybe tomorrow i go golf driving range to hit some balls!!!! haha, high time i go find all my gears, e.g. gloves ( i still have them), shoes (ko-yat already, i have to use my track shoes), golf clothes (aiyo now so fat liao, i have to wear non-golf polo shirt and pants), golf set (hiya passed all my irons and woods to my ex-bf for storing, i dun think i wan to go collect them back, thinking of buying new loose ones from the shops, haha always wanted to buy a Ping brand iron because last time i used my male fren's Ping iron, fwah the flex is damn shiok!). And where are all my store value cards from all sorts of driving ranges??? did i give all of them to my ex-bf????
tomorrow i will ring mark & co. to ask where they are going to practise
i have been working very hard lately and i hardly get a break to relax or breathe
Sunday, 18 July 2010
only one flood in every 50 years
For the last 2 months, it had already flooded 3 times???
Meng said not to worry, the next one would be in 200 years' time because it had already flooded 3 times.
Two nights ago, Meng and I were woken up by strong winds and torrential rain. I had some windows left open for ventilation and when I got up to check, rain water had ponded in some parts of my living and dining room.
Meng kept mumbling about his car. He asked me whether our basement will flood or not. I said, NO, because there hasn't been any incidences. But he kept worrying about his baobei sports car parked in the basement. You see, I live in Bukit Timah which is a flood prone area. Tessarina condo (the one with the completely flooded basement carpark reported in the news recently) is just a few condos away from mine.
Meng told me he slept fitfully. First thing in the morning, he took the lift down to the basement to check. He said the moment the lift door opened, he was immediately relief because no water rushed in at him. Straightaway, he pressed the button to go up again.
That day, I found out our lifts were damaged by the rainwater when the pipe carrying rainwater had burst opened and the rainwater had leaked into the electrical room. All in all, it was good that we didn't have a flooded basement because, we have two cars.
Today......
After church service, my friend (who lives in a Bukit Timah cluster house.... on Gentle Road) told me her basement was flooded up to the ceiling on Saturday @ 5 am. They and their neighbours were in a mad frenzy trying to stop water from flowing into their homes. They called every agency they know of whom they think can help, i.e, PWD, police, fire dept, their condo developer, etc. Finally, one agency handed them some sandbags but it was too late. Her husband's BMW was a gone case and awaiting the tow truck. I heard none of their neighbours managed to save their cars from complete submersion except for one lucky guy's car. Immediately, I offered to help her clean up her house's basement level. Four of us went over to help. By then, most of the water had subsided leaving water marks and mud dirt all over the basement. It was madness. Tow trucks had a hard time maneuvering in the narrow basement carpark. It took a long while (something like an hour) just to tow out one car. We had to clear out many stuff inside the cupboards and in the bedroom. The guys had to move and dispose of one bed and a mattress. I think my guy friend caught a live frog inside the wardrobe. I was mopping endlessly. Finally, we got hold of a water hose and hose down all the dirt inside the cupboards, on the walls and on every nooks and corners on the floor. The development looks like a big mess with all sorts of broken down and wet furniture and appliances placed out in the open.
It was hardwork. It had been a very tiring day for me.
I am going to sleep early.
Meng said not to worry, the next one would be in 200 years' time because it had already flooded 3 times.
Two nights ago, Meng and I were woken up by strong winds and torrential rain. I had some windows left open for ventilation and when I got up to check, rain water had ponded in some parts of my living and dining room.
Meng kept mumbling about his car. He asked me whether our basement will flood or not. I said, NO, because there hasn't been any incidences. But he kept worrying about his baobei sports car parked in the basement. You see, I live in Bukit Timah which is a flood prone area. Tessarina condo (the one with the completely flooded basement carpark reported in the news recently) is just a few condos away from mine.
Meng told me he slept fitfully. First thing in the morning, he took the lift down to the basement to check. He said the moment the lift door opened, he was immediately relief because no water rushed in at him. Straightaway, he pressed the button to go up again.
That day, I found out our lifts were damaged by the rainwater when the pipe carrying rainwater had burst opened and the rainwater had leaked into the electrical room. All in all, it was good that we didn't have a flooded basement because, we have two cars.
Today......
After church service, my friend (who lives in a Bukit Timah cluster house.... on Gentle Road) told me her basement was flooded up to the ceiling on Saturday @ 5 am. They and their neighbours were in a mad frenzy trying to stop water from flowing into their homes. They called every agency they know of whom they think can help, i.e, PWD, police, fire dept, their condo developer, etc. Finally, one agency handed them some sandbags but it was too late. Her husband's BMW was a gone case and awaiting the tow truck. I heard none of their neighbours managed to save their cars from complete submersion except for one lucky guy's car. Immediately, I offered to help her clean up her house's basement level. Four of us went over to help. By then, most of the water had subsided leaving water marks and mud dirt all over the basement. It was madness. Tow trucks had a hard time maneuvering in the narrow basement carpark. It took a long while (something like an hour) just to tow out one car. We had to clear out many stuff inside the cupboards and in the bedroom. The guys had to move and dispose of one bed and a mattress. I think my guy friend caught a live frog inside the wardrobe. I was mopping endlessly. Finally, we got hold of a water hose and hose down all the dirt inside the cupboards, on the walls and on every nooks and corners on the floor. The development looks like a big mess with all sorts of broken down and wet furniture and appliances placed out in the open.
It was hardwork. It had been a very tiring day for me.
I am going to sleep early.
Friday, 16 July 2010
messy room, groggy head, golf and stuff
ah mo's bedroom is under construction.... i mean, repacking and throwing away unwanted stuff
meng is here for the weekend and he looks pissed by the bedroom mess, haha... he has gone to the living room to be by himself.... just now he grumbled and mumbled something to me and when i say,"what?", he quickly said, "nothing nothing"
now ah mo is on "project 100 songs"........ my personal compilation of old songs which i love with guitar chords... getting ready a repertoire in case.... nevermind
closed my first deal in the team project.... one more should be coming soon for the other team project (the one that the so-called fren tried to undercut)... my team leader did advise me to park myself at the showroom everyday in case of clients who turn up without appointments and then my colleagues close the case without my knowing (intentional or unintentional, well well it does happen)
ah mo trying her best to get enough sleep... must stop drinking too much tea and coffee liao... must tell meng to stop going out for late nights teh tarik... cos not enough sleep means go to work head feel giddy giddy.... liddat no more productivity
just now i drop by the showroom and my teammates were there even though my team is not on duty.... and they were going off to the golf driving range to practise golf after closing hours.... wah i was so tempted to go but can't coz meng was waiting for me to come home... so at the construction site carpark (yah, i am working at a construction site) we were all doing our swings and mark gave me some constructive comments.... yes, i still have it hahah i mean i can still swing properly lah..... but i think it is not a good idea to continue with golf becoz it can get very addictive and that means i will not be home most of the time.... so what kind of a mother will i be to ben????
okie time to go and pack up the bedroom
meng is here for the weekend and he looks pissed by the bedroom mess, haha... he has gone to the living room to be by himself.... just now he grumbled and mumbled something to me and when i say,"what?", he quickly said, "nothing nothing"
now ah mo is on "project 100 songs"........ my personal compilation of old songs which i love with guitar chords... getting ready a repertoire in case.... nevermind
closed my first deal in the team project.... one more should be coming soon for the other team project (the one that the so-called fren tried to undercut)... my team leader did advise me to park myself at the showroom everyday in case of clients who turn up without appointments and then my colleagues close the case without my knowing (intentional or unintentional, well well it does happen)
ah mo trying her best to get enough sleep... must stop drinking too much tea and coffee liao... must tell meng to stop going out for late nights teh tarik... cos not enough sleep means go to work head feel giddy giddy.... liddat no more productivity
just now i drop by the showroom and my teammates were there even though my team is not on duty.... and they were going off to the golf driving range to practise golf after closing hours.... wah i was so tempted to go but can't coz meng was waiting for me to come home... so at the construction site carpark (yah, i am working at a construction site) we were all doing our swings and mark gave me some constructive comments.... yes, i still have it hahah i mean i can still swing properly lah..... but i think it is not a good idea to continue with golf becoz it can get very addictive and that means i will not be home most of the time.... so what kind of a mother will i be to ben????
okie time to go and pack up the bedroom
Wednesday, 14 July 2010
Tuesday, 13 July 2010
money money money
people around me are making alot of $$$$
i also wan
chiong arrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i also wan
chiong arrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 11 July 2010
what should i do?
I was just thinking....
Should I pick up an interesting hobby to lose weight?
How about pole dancing? Or belly dancing?
I am feeling the "tyres" around my waist and I've never been this fat all my life. Sigh.
Blame it on my thyroxine medicine.
I think I need to get into a healthy and balanced lifestyle.
Guitar playing is just not enough!!!
My diet has to change. I must get 8-9 hours sleep every night. My whole outlook in life must become happier and more positive. I must love myself more. I must stop thinking I want to k-i-l-l Ben when he makes me mad (haha, don't take me seriously lah). I must learn to let go when situations are beyond my control. I must stop worrying. And the list goes on....
Any partners in crime???
Should I pick up an interesting hobby to lose weight?
How about pole dancing? Or belly dancing?
I am feeling the "tyres" around my waist and I've never been this fat all my life. Sigh.
Blame it on my thyroxine medicine.
I think I need to get into a healthy and balanced lifestyle.
Guitar playing is just not enough!!!
My diet has to change. I must get 8-9 hours sleep every night. My whole outlook in life must become happier and more positive. I must love myself more. I must stop thinking I want to k-i-l-l Ben when he makes me mad (haha, don't take me seriously lah). I must learn to let go when situations are beyond my control. I must stop worrying. And the list goes on....
Any partners in crime???
Saturday, 10 July 2010
speechless
I feel absolutely awful.
My cobroke agent has already made $1.4m in commission so far this year. And it is only half a year. Imagine if he continues on this lucky strike, he will nab $2.8m in total this year.
Thing is, he has closed 7 units Sentosa bungalows, besides all his other properties.
I feel sick. I haven't even made 1/10th of that amount yet.
Meng said it would take 12 years of work for him to make $1.4m. So I said to Meng, "Assuming my cobroke makes $2.8m this year, that will mean 24 years of your life." Knn. We feel so sick.
I have to work harder and smarter. And no more emo-ing about this lah, that lah. Think I have wasted alot of time. I better buck up!
My cobroke agent has already made $1.4m in commission so far this year. And it is only half a year. Imagine if he continues on this lucky strike, he will nab $2.8m in total this year.
Thing is, he has closed 7 units Sentosa bungalows, besides all his other properties.
I feel sick. I haven't even made 1/10th of that amount yet.
Meng said it would take 12 years of work for him to make $1.4m. So I said to Meng, "Assuming my cobroke makes $2.8m this year, that will mean 24 years of your life." Knn. We feel so sick.
I have to work harder and smarter. And no more emo-ing about this lah, that lah. Think I have wasted alot of time. I better buck up!
Friday, 9 July 2010
ben got oral exam tomorrow
Ben tomorrow got chinese oral O level exams, siao liao, he is unprepared. Last min he asked me to contact meng to help him with some chinese phrases. But meng out with frens after work leh.... Meng from SAP school, both chinese and english languages can jadi one unlike ben and me, our chinese lousy like fxxx! Last time meng take psle that time, his score was 268!! 268 wor!!!!! I dunno about ben's papa psle score but i noe ben and me psle score were down the longkang!!! Hiya, nvm lah, as long as can survive this world and can make a living, good enough liao.
Got headache the whole day. Going to bed soon.
Got headache the whole day. Going to bed soon.
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
No dog
I have decided not to take the dog. Reasons being I don't have the time, my work is stressful, Ben is going to sit for O level this year, the apartment is already so messy and sometimes dirty so keeping a dog would mean I will be lagi stressed out and the poor dog neglected.
In short, no dog.
Meng said the dog will be so bored, alone at home most of the time.
This morning I really put in alot of effort to make the apartment clean and lovely. Ben came home from school in the afternoon and started shouting, "MOM! MOM!" He wanted to tell me he was so pleased that I cleared away alot of mess.
I have put the incident of that stupid fren(stranger) behind me. I am also no longer emo. Now, I am stronger and ready to move on.
Jia Yu Momo!!!
In short, no dog.
Meng said the dog will be so bored, alone at home most of the time.
This morning I really put in alot of effort to make the apartment clean and lovely. Ben came home from school in the afternoon and started shouting, "MOM! MOM!" He wanted to tell me he was so pleased that I cleared away alot of mess.
I have put the incident of that stupid fren(stranger) behind me. I am also no longer emo. Now, I am stronger and ready to move on.
Jia Yu Momo!!!
Monday, 5 July 2010
Ben, drums, an old lady and a dog
Ben asked me to sign a letter to tell the school he is not going to sit for a humanities subject paper and asked to be excused from attending lessons. Woah! Always got this kind of difficult decision for me to make. Naturally, I relented in his best interest because he said that that is not his strong subject and Aunt Sandra also said to him, "Yah, it won't look good on your cert if you know you are going to do badly for it." Hokay, so I said to him, "Please do well for all your other papers." I wrote out and gave him the letter to bring to school. Ben is a Science student and he sucks big time at humanities subjects. I am hoping he scores at least 4 A1s for his math and science papers and for the other two subjects, I am hoping he can score too. Anything else means he may not get into ACJC. Hiyah, so stressful for me leh.... I hope he is not stressed out but is taking everything in his stride..... Anywayz, should he not achieve those grades, I am NOT going to complain but will still give him my utmost support for doing his best. Sometimes, it is hard to predict why things go wrong during exams so I am not going to be a difficult mom.
That day, the one-floor-downstairs neighbour, the old lady (I am sure it is her again!!!) complained that Ben's drumming was too noisy. Ben called me and said the management came up and spoke to him. My same floor neighbours all okie leh... never said Ben's drumming was too noisy. In fact, my same floor neighbour's son playing the piano was also very loud but I also never go and complain mah!!! I mean, c'mon, this is community living and as long as it is daytime and the noise level is not extreme, we should all be more tolerant! Right!!!!?????
Anywayz, my dear son went downstairs and spoke to the management to discuss this issue. So this young mgt guy asked Ben to use carpet to dampen the sound. Aiyoh, I also told Ben before but he refused to listen to me! Ben siao siao one, he asked the mgt guy what he thinks of his (Ben's) drumming and the mgt guy said, "Okay, not bad but just have to practise some more to play more smoothly." Haha, my son a joker lah...
Today my friend asked me to consider adopting a 10 month old Jack Russell named Julius. Yes, like the rest of my family members, WE LOVE DOGS. But now I am thinking hard about my downstairs ngiao old lady. What if she complains about the dog's barking??? Siao liao...
Tomorrow I will go and visit Julius. See how lah. I may or may not adopt Julius.
I have been practising strumming and singing "Tears In Heaven" and "Say A Little Prayer". I have already stopped guitar lessons and is now self-learning. Hokay lah, still can....
Next, I hope to have time to learn to play the drums.
So tired. Going to bed soon.
That day, the one-floor-downstairs neighbour, the old lady (I am sure it is her again!!!) complained that Ben's drumming was too noisy. Ben called me and said the management came up and spoke to him. My same floor neighbours all okie leh... never said Ben's drumming was too noisy. In fact, my same floor neighbour's son playing the piano was also very loud but I also never go and complain mah!!! I mean, c'mon, this is community living and as long as it is daytime and the noise level is not extreme, we should all be more tolerant! Right!!!!?????
Anywayz, my dear son went downstairs and spoke to the management to discuss this issue. So this young mgt guy asked Ben to use carpet to dampen the sound. Aiyoh, I also told Ben before but he refused to listen to me! Ben siao siao one, he asked the mgt guy what he thinks of his (Ben's) drumming and the mgt guy said, "Okay, not bad but just have to practise some more to play more smoothly." Haha, my son a joker lah...
Today my friend asked me to consider adopting a 10 month old Jack Russell named Julius. Yes, like the rest of my family members, WE LOVE DOGS. But now I am thinking hard about my downstairs ngiao old lady. What if she complains about the dog's barking??? Siao liao...
Tomorrow I will go and visit Julius. See how lah. I may or may not adopt Julius.
I have been practising strumming and singing "Tears In Heaven" and "Say A Little Prayer". I have already stopped guitar lessons and is now self-learning. Hokay lah, still can....
Next, I hope to have time to learn to play the drums.
So tired. Going to bed soon.
Friday, 25 June 2010
back to business
I am slowly coming back to human realm consciousness. Last 2-3 days I was like in a daze because my mind was continuously playing a broken record with a voice asking, "why ar? why ar?"
Okay, thank God I am closing in on a deal. Not a big one, in fact, very small but I am happy because I love the feeling of closing deals! Call it adrenalin rush! Or in hokkien-speak, "happy pom pipi" feeling.
Anywayz, today I was at my sister's office and we were talking about my project marketing and she helped me linked up a very prospective client.... hey, another good one! This one is very very potential. Okie okie adrenalin fluid pumping again..... Client will call me back on Monday if need more discussion....
My hairdresser Wendy was very kind. She was very encouraging and she prayed for me over the phone with powerful words to rebuke the devil from attacking my work. I am very humbled and comforted by her encouraging words. I think being successful has somehow gotten into my head and I have forgotten it is The One above who blesses me with the success, not my own effort.
Great! I am also helping Wendy find an assignee to takeover her hairdressing business in Tanjong Pagar. She is quite sad to let it go but she has other plans on her mind. Anybody interested?
Okay, thank God I am closing in on a deal. Not a big one, in fact, very small but I am happy because I love the feeling of closing deals! Call it adrenalin rush! Or in hokkien-speak, "happy pom pipi" feeling.
Anywayz, today I was at my sister's office and we were talking about my project marketing and she helped me linked up a very prospective client.... hey, another good one! This one is very very potential. Okie okie adrenalin fluid pumping again..... Client will call me back on Monday if need more discussion....
My hairdresser Wendy was very kind. She was very encouraging and she prayed for me over the phone with powerful words to rebuke the devil from attacking my work. I am very humbled and comforted by her encouraging words. I think being successful has somehow gotten into my head and I have forgotten it is The One above who blesses me with the success, not my own effort.
Great! I am also helping Wendy find an assignee to takeover her hairdressing business in Tanjong Pagar. She is quite sad to let it go but she has other plans on her mind. Anybody interested?
some people, tsk tsk
I just mopped the floor and now, the home feels really clean.
I am looking for little things in life that makes me happy, like a clean floor.
This year seems like a pretty bad year, at least for the last half year. As far as work is concerned, almost everything turned out bad. Feel so sad... how come like this???
My sister said, blame it on your apartment, buey gum for you.
But ben said, cannot say liddat, then it becomes a feng shui thing, but it is not!
So I said, then it is satanic attack... before the bud could fruit, it drops off half-way.
Just two days ago......
The one whom I considered my friend, has just betrayed me. She played a very dirty trick on me. She undercut my deal. The total commission was going to be huge and I was the one who gave her the lead to cobroke this deal with me. It's either greed for more money or to outwit / outsmart me because she thinks she is much cleverer than me. WTF. She is not cleverer, in fact, she is dumber for trying to out-smart me... it will back-fire on her... time will tell. She is avoiding contacts with me by forever being "away" on msn and disappearing from facebook. WTF. Proven guilt-stricken. I am suffering from mild shock. My colleagues are understanding. They treated me nice because they know I am feeling yucky from such betrayal. Once I get over this shock, I will move on and forget about such low-down people whom I have always been nice and kind. I will move on and get back to focusing on work and closing more deals.
All the more, I appreciate Meng for being consistent all these years and for being by my side through thick and thin, good times or bad times, having plenty or having little.
Ben said to me not to trust friends anymore especially when it involves big money, but only the very close friends.
Ben, meng and me are feeling yucky about this whole thing because it involves a friend (now stranger) whom we know well.
I tell myself not to feel defeated but to keep my spirits up high.
I will continue to be positive and cheerful.
I am looking for little things in life that makes me happy, like a clean floor.
This year seems like a pretty bad year, at least for the last half year. As far as work is concerned, almost everything turned out bad. Feel so sad... how come like this???
My sister said, blame it on your apartment, buey gum for you.
But ben said, cannot say liddat, then it becomes a feng shui thing, but it is not!
So I said, then it is satanic attack... before the bud could fruit, it drops off half-way.
Just two days ago......
The one whom I considered my friend, has just betrayed me. She played a very dirty trick on me. She undercut my deal. The total commission was going to be huge and I was the one who gave her the lead to cobroke this deal with me. It's either greed for more money or to outwit / outsmart me because she thinks she is much cleverer than me. WTF. She is not cleverer, in fact, she is dumber for trying to out-smart me... it will back-fire on her... time will tell. She is avoiding contacts with me by forever being "away" on msn and disappearing from facebook. WTF. Proven guilt-stricken. I am suffering from mild shock. My colleagues are understanding. They treated me nice because they know I am feeling yucky from such betrayal. Once I get over this shock, I will move on and forget about such low-down people whom I have always been nice and kind. I will move on and get back to focusing on work and closing more deals.
All the more, I appreciate Meng for being consistent all these years and for being by my side through thick and thin, good times or bad times, having plenty or having little.
Ben said to me not to trust friends anymore especially when it involves big money, but only the very close friends.
Ben, meng and me are feeling yucky about this whole thing because it involves a friend (now stranger) whom we know well.
I tell myself not to feel defeated but to keep my spirits up high.
I will continue to be positive and cheerful.
Sunday, 20 June 2010
pay and pay (sounds familiar?)
NOT looking forward to these:
1. road tax
2. car insurance
by mid july... sian jit puah
road tax these days like so expensive leh... i hope the gahmen nab those car workshops who anyhow claim high cost for accident cases..... they jack up repair costs so high, now we the drivers suffer, we have to pay higher insurance premium
so sian :(
1. road tax
2. car insurance
by mid july... sian jit puah
road tax these days like so expensive leh... i hope the gahmen nab those car workshops who anyhow claim high cost for accident cases..... they jack up repair costs so high, now we the drivers suffer, we have to pay higher insurance premium
so sian :(
heartbreaking story
A very heartbreaking story about a young woman's guilt after abortion, losing her will to live and how she turned her life around.
Interestingly, there is an application called, "bucket list" on facebook that she mentioned that helps turn her life around and also online shopping for clothes that helps her look forward to a new day.
I also once almost lost all will to live. I am so glad there is something called inner-strength when you are hanging onto the last bit of the rope.
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9560
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9561
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9564
Interestingly, there is an application called, "bucket list" on facebook that she mentioned that helps turn her life around and also online shopping for clothes that helps her look forward to a new day.
I also once almost lost all will to live. I am so glad there is something called inner-strength when you are hanging onto the last bit of the rope.
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9560
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9561
http://www.divaasia.com/article/9564
Eric Clapton's sad story
How did Eric Clapton's son die?
Read this link:
http://www.eric-clapton.co.uk/interviewsandarticles/loryinterview.htm
It is a long essay but read somewhere from the middle.
In short, the boy flew out of a 53rd storey condo from an open glass window which was not supposed to be opened. Freak accident. Why is it that ang mohs never see the value of grills?? We chinese people have no qualms about grilling the entire HDB flat. Rather safe than sorry. Rather a prison than a picturesque, unobstructed, panoramic postcard view.
The thought sends chills to my bones. Inconceivable. I will never want that to happen to my boy nor to anybody's boy.
So sad. Eric Clap wrote a song called "Circus left town". Eric and his son Connor visited the circus just a day before the accident happened. They were so happy and then the next day, tragedy struck. So, Eric Clapton wrote this song and he described his feelings as "so sad". Heartbreaking. You can find this song on youtube. Very beautiful, very sad.
And of course, the very popular song called, "Tears in Heaven" he wrote to describe the scenario of ever seeing his son again.
Read this link:
http://www.eric-clapton.co.uk/interviewsandarticles/loryinterview.htm
It is a long essay but read somewhere from the middle.
In short, the boy flew out of a 53rd storey condo from an open glass window which was not supposed to be opened. Freak accident. Why is it that ang mohs never see the value of grills?? We chinese people have no qualms about grilling the entire HDB flat. Rather safe than sorry. Rather a prison than a picturesque, unobstructed, panoramic postcard view.
The thought sends chills to my bones. Inconceivable. I will never want that to happen to my boy nor to anybody's boy.
So sad. Eric Clap wrote a song called "Circus left town". Eric and his son Connor visited the circus just a day before the accident happened. They were so happy and then the next day, tragedy struck. So, Eric Clapton wrote this song and he described his feelings as "so sad". Heartbreaking. You can find this song on youtube. Very beautiful, very sad.
And of course, the very popular song called, "Tears in Heaven" he wrote to describe the scenario of ever seeing his son again.
Thursday, 10 June 2010
incoherent ramblings
i know i dun hv enough sleep every nite but still i wun go to bed early... something is terribly wrong with me... anywayz, been working hard to close more deals and today, i had a meeting with a big fish.... monday another meeting with the same big fish.... hope all soon soon chop chop close and hosey liao for the next few months... thinking of refocussing my attention to more profitable segments of the market.... well for that, i will have to give up some of those work that are taking up too much time for too little money.... geez, money is not easy to make but very easy to spend..... i am working so hard for that extra money coz this year our home expenses are realli high compared to previous years..... nonetheless, life is pretty good for the time-being
i am a bad time organiser, spending so little time playing the guitar lately...... however, i am making good progress on eric clapton's "tears in heaven".... fingerstyle playing is the same as the classical guitar technique so it realli is not a problem for me but i wan to play the piece beautifully with dynamics and feelings and that is difficult.... it requires much patience and practice
trivial question: do you know why eric clapton wrote the song "tears in heaven"? hokay, so you know his son died and he wrote this song to express his pain.... now the real question: do you know how his son died???
(i almost freaked out upon finding out the truth..... i will tell you what happened in another post)
ben is having school holidays now and he is kinda behaving very well after we communicated about what ticks me off... i think he is trying.... now i see that he consciously puts himself into my shoes to try to understand what i am going thru.... as a mom, that is very satisfying
life is short... sometimes realli no pt to think too much or try to aim too high.... hiaz
i hope to take a break for a vacation overseas...... tokyo? rome? italy? mediterranean sea? that would have been so nice.... but ben dislike travelling out of the country so i haven realli travelled much for the last few years
this year ben takes his O level so i hope he performs well and go to ACJC as he had hoped for
time flies so fast, ben is already 16 years old.......... soon, HE WILL BE GOING INTO THE ARMY!!!! Gosh, i am growing old too fast!!!!
hokay i am going to bed soon..... tomorrow is another day where i have much work to do
nitezzzzzzzzZZZZZZZ
i am a bad time organiser, spending so little time playing the guitar lately...... however, i am making good progress on eric clapton's "tears in heaven".... fingerstyle playing is the same as the classical guitar technique so it realli is not a problem for me but i wan to play the piece beautifully with dynamics and feelings and that is difficult.... it requires much patience and practice
trivial question: do you know why eric clapton wrote the song "tears in heaven"? hokay, so you know his son died and he wrote this song to express his pain.... now the real question: do you know how his son died???
(i almost freaked out upon finding out the truth..... i will tell you what happened in another post)
ben is having school holidays now and he is kinda behaving very well after we communicated about what ticks me off... i think he is trying.... now i see that he consciously puts himself into my shoes to try to understand what i am going thru.... as a mom, that is very satisfying
life is short... sometimes realli no pt to think too much or try to aim too high.... hiaz
i hope to take a break for a vacation overseas...... tokyo? rome? italy? mediterranean sea? that would have been so nice.... but ben dislike travelling out of the country so i haven realli travelled much for the last few years
this year ben takes his O level so i hope he performs well and go to ACJC as he had hoped for
time flies so fast, ben is already 16 years old.......... soon, HE WILL BE GOING INTO THE ARMY!!!! Gosh, i am growing old too fast!!!!
hokay i am going to bed soon..... tomorrow is another day where i have much work to do
nitezzzzzzzzZZZZZZZ
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
lim teh talk cock
we must give ourselves a group name lah.... how about "uncle beng's angels"? hahaha...
and so...
old beng, kurakat, xorpheus, elydia, peter and moi met up again at the roadside mama stall... lim teh talk cock... talk about why always onli moi and old beng organise meet ups and not xorpheus or kurakat... til today no definitive answer, they just smile at u when u ask them point blank in the face (damn scary, man!)
we change topics very fast and before you know it, old beng announced he is very tired liao becoz for 2 days he has been packing and moving stuff becoz of office relocation and to prove a point, he put his two hands around his waist, twist and turn and make the face look like in pain to show he is not joking, he IS very tired...
oh ya...
we discussed "fly kites" and "climb trees" and old beng explained all the vulgar connotations in hokkien expletives hur hur hur... however moi catch no ball becoz it got too technical so moi asked if there is an operation manual available
nonetheless we have more or less decided to fly kites for the next meet up... yes, just pure clean fun, no hanky panky.... sure old beng will love it hurhurhur
and so...
old beng, kurakat, xorpheus, elydia, peter and moi met up again at the roadside mama stall... lim teh talk cock... talk about why always onli moi and old beng organise meet ups and not xorpheus or kurakat... til today no definitive answer, they just smile at u when u ask them point blank in the face (damn scary, man!)
we change topics very fast and before you know it, old beng announced he is very tired liao becoz for 2 days he has been packing and moving stuff becoz of office relocation and to prove a point, he put his two hands around his waist, twist and turn and make the face look like in pain to show he is not joking, he IS very tired...
oh ya...
we discussed "fly kites" and "climb trees" and old beng explained all the vulgar connotations in hokkien expletives hur hur hur... however moi catch no ball becoz it got too technical so moi asked if there is an operation manual available
nonetheless we have more or less decided to fly kites for the next meet up... yes, just pure clean fun, no hanky panky.... sure old beng will love it hurhurhur
Thursday, 3 June 2010
12 teenagers and the deafening noise
ben had his bbq and his frens were so noisy and rowdy, kena complained by residents and also guard kaopeh ben nvr submit form for bbq pit booking and the guard talk to me like damn dulan...
other than that, everything went smoothly, food was fantastic (yay, ahmo seasoned the chicken wings, sambal sotong and sambal prawns.... the boys loved it!)
well wat do u expect from a group of 16 year old boys from a boy's school... sure very active and loud rite? from my 4th floor unit, i could hear them shouting so damn loud and clear downstairs... one min they play tennis, next min they all hanging around at the pool, next min i see a group of shirtless young men screaming and shouting inside the pool... wah, i almost pengsan lah, coz i know sure the guards will come and talk to me about the extreme noise level
when i saw them starting the fire, i went downstairs to help them grill the food... wah 2 boys so enthusiastic want to be chief cooks and only allow me to stand behind and help out.... all the 12 boys were extremely polite and nice to me and all of them were like "thank you aunty... this", "thank you aunty.... that", so lovable and ke ai
later they all came upstairs and wah siao liao!!! with gusto they were singing along with the guitar hero game and then the inevitable happened, the guard came up and knocked on the door....
another group was inside ben's room playing guitar and drums... also damn noisy man... so i asked ben please don't kick the bass drum that hard, so damn loud!
i had to go to both groups and asked them to tone down...
but they all very cooperative after i tell them nicely they must tone down otherwise the residents complain again becoz it is already 10pm
my immediate downstairs neighbour is an old lady and i know she damn ngiao one... last time she complained i dragged dining room chairs, so i had to go buy sticker padding for the chair leg base
but all in all, it was fun and a great way to spend the night
when i was a teenager like them, i was also the same, very fun loving and noisy
that's why i nvr get angry lah
i fully understand
other than that, everything went smoothly, food was fantastic (yay, ahmo seasoned the chicken wings, sambal sotong and sambal prawns.... the boys loved it!)
well wat do u expect from a group of 16 year old boys from a boy's school... sure very active and loud rite? from my 4th floor unit, i could hear them shouting so damn loud and clear downstairs... one min they play tennis, next min they all hanging around at the pool, next min i see a group of shirtless young men screaming and shouting inside the pool... wah, i almost pengsan lah, coz i know sure the guards will come and talk to me about the extreme noise level
when i saw them starting the fire, i went downstairs to help them grill the food... wah 2 boys so enthusiastic want to be chief cooks and only allow me to stand behind and help out.... all the 12 boys were extremely polite and nice to me and all of them were like "thank you aunty... this", "thank you aunty.... that", so lovable and ke ai
later they all came upstairs and wah siao liao!!! with gusto they were singing along with the guitar hero game and then the inevitable happened, the guard came up and knocked on the door....
another group was inside ben's room playing guitar and drums... also damn noisy man... so i asked ben please don't kick the bass drum that hard, so damn loud!
i had to go to both groups and asked them to tone down...
but they all very cooperative after i tell them nicely they must tone down otherwise the residents complain again becoz it is already 10pm
my immediate downstairs neighbour is an old lady and i know she damn ngiao one... last time she complained i dragged dining room chairs, so i had to go buy sticker padding for the chair leg base
but all in all, it was fun and a great way to spend the night
when i was a teenager like them, i was also the same, very fun loving and noisy
that's why i nvr get angry lah
i fully understand
Thursday, 27 May 2010
life as seen thru rose speckled glasses
my clients like to text me with such, "ah mo, wat is the latest update?" nabeh this kind of question is like a double-edged sword.. it realli means, "ah mo, did you get an offer at the same rate or at a rate more than my ridiculously high asking price!!!" i always get very nervous when i see such a text from my clients, so i need to be extra careful when i reply.... anywayz, i digress............
i also have my personal updates... on my ownself lah
1. thyroid condition is stabilised with medicine liao... today doctor told me the happi news that the medicine dosage is ngum ngum so i will onli see her in half a years time.... happi pom pipi coz i hate blood tests each time i go see doctor.... so the next time vampire suck my blood again will be sometime in November, yippeee!!!!
2. i lost a big fish.... sigh..... i was trying to close a big deal but in the end the tenant said our asking rental is too high, bo pian liao lor, that is wat the developer wants for the f&b space... no go
3, happi news!!! my corporate client chairman is a veri nasty man and i heard the good news he might be leaving to go back to his country, yippeee!!! i am happi for myself and the people working inside who had been traumatised and terrorized by his evil temper
4. though i lost a big fish, the same fish is considering to buy a small unit in the same development as an investment... hope they have no problem with the bank financing then i hosay liao.... small $$ better than no $$ at all rite?
5. no more guitar lessons for me and no more drums lessons for ah boy..... we are now exercising cost saving measures.... actualli online got alot of free sites giving free lessons and i am currently learning how to play "tears in heaven" (see on the left side of my blog under free stuff), since i was already trained in playing classical style when i was young, it is realli not too difficult lah, onli difficulty is in memorising it (i.e. playing without looking at the tabs) and trying to play and sound like the pro (more practice needed lor)... the advantage of online lessons is that, i can go backwards and repeat many times until i get it, cool!!!! thinking of purchasing for ah boy some drums instructional dvd (kill 2 birds with 1 stone hehehe i can also learn mah!)
6. i have been sleeping very late (sometimes 3 am or later!!!) and it has become a bad habit.... i wan to kick this bad habit!!!! coz i know it affects my skin and the shorter hours of sleep is making me very groggy in the day and my brain juice cannot flow properly when i need to think on my job
7. my ah boy can be very rude and i am so angry with him..... i have told him he makes my life feel so shitty.... i am sure if his father was still alive, the father will sure discipline him jialat jialat unlike me... ah boy onli knows how to bully the mother becoz no matter how angry, the mother is still too soft
8. tomorrow is a public holiday!!! yippeee!!! but i still have to work lah... but at least i feel a little more relax coz it is a holiday
9. ah boy is organising a bbq at our condo for some of his close frens next tuesday... i have to go out and buy the bbq stuff
10. i am putting on alot of weight, yucks!
i think that is about all that is to my boring life, for the time being at least!
i also have my personal updates... on my ownself lah
1. thyroid condition is stabilised with medicine liao... today doctor told me the happi news that the medicine dosage is ngum ngum so i will onli see her in half a years time.... happi pom pipi coz i hate blood tests each time i go see doctor.... so the next time vampire suck my blood again will be sometime in November, yippeee!!!!
2. i lost a big fish.... sigh..... i was trying to close a big deal but in the end the tenant said our asking rental is too high, bo pian liao lor, that is wat the developer wants for the f&b space... no go
3, happi news!!! my corporate client chairman is a veri nasty man and i heard the good news he might be leaving to go back to his country, yippeee!!! i am happi for myself and the people working inside who had been traumatised and terrorized by his evil temper
4. though i lost a big fish, the same fish is considering to buy a small unit in the same development as an investment... hope they have no problem with the bank financing then i hosay liao.... small $$ better than no $$ at all rite?
5. no more guitar lessons for me and no more drums lessons for ah boy..... we are now exercising cost saving measures.... actualli online got alot of free sites giving free lessons and i am currently learning how to play "tears in heaven" (see on the left side of my blog under free stuff), since i was already trained in playing classical style when i was young, it is realli not too difficult lah, onli difficulty is in memorising it (i.e. playing without looking at the tabs) and trying to play and sound like the pro (more practice needed lor)... the advantage of online lessons is that, i can go backwards and repeat many times until i get it, cool!!!! thinking of purchasing for ah boy some drums instructional dvd (kill 2 birds with 1 stone hehehe i can also learn mah!)
6. i have been sleeping very late (sometimes 3 am or later!!!) and it has become a bad habit.... i wan to kick this bad habit!!!! coz i know it affects my skin and the shorter hours of sleep is making me very groggy in the day and my brain juice cannot flow properly when i need to think on my job
7. my ah boy can be very rude and i am so angry with him..... i have told him he makes my life feel so shitty.... i am sure if his father was still alive, the father will sure discipline him jialat jialat unlike me... ah boy onli knows how to bully the mother becoz no matter how angry, the mother is still too soft
8. tomorrow is a public holiday!!! yippeee!!! but i still have to work lah... but at least i feel a little more relax coz it is a holiday
9. ah boy is organising a bbq at our condo for some of his close frens next tuesday... i have to go out and buy the bbq stuff
10. i am putting on alot of weight, yucks!
i think that is about all that is to my boring life, for the time being at least!
Wednesday, 19 May 2010
household budget
last nite i did a household budget and presto it was a moment of truth for me....... that there are many fixed cost which i cannot avoid e.g. rental, car loans, road tax, car insurance...
the others which i can try to save will be utitlities bills (don't use too much aircon?), hp bills (talk less?), pocket money (cut down, cook and eat at home more often?), cease music lessons (luxury?), etc....
good thing i actually sat down and do a simple calculation coz now i realli have to seriously consider whether i can put ben thru university
he said: i can get a scholarship!
i said: you think so easy meh! (i am secretly v happi he said it)
he said: can we break the lease here?
i said: leh cheh lah wait they forfeit our deposit.....i already sank it money to paint and do up this place.... just stay put! this is a good place for you to study and do well for your O level... we can stay here until u finish jc1
he said: hmmm.... can we stay here until i finish my A level? if you could still make it....
i said: when the time comes, we shall see what is the situation then and of coz we shall go for the best option
ben said he noes what to do and how to cut down on household expenditure... he is trying
i am glad i showed him the spreadsheet and roped him into brainstorming ideas
he wun spend unnecessary money from now on
i can try to squeeze some money out for a small endowment plan to help defray some future university costs.... i am realli trying
the others which i can try to save will be utitlities bills (don't use too much aircon?), hp bills (talk less?), pocket money (cut down, cook and eat at home more often?), cease music lessons (luxury?), etc....
good thing i actually sat down and do a simple calculation coz now i realli have to seriously consider whether i can put ben thru university
he said: i can get a scholarship!
i said: you think so easy meh! (i am secretly v happi he said it)
he said: can we break the lease here?
i said: leh cheh lah wait they forfeit our deposit.....i already sank it money to paint and do up this place.... just stay put! this is a good place for you to study and do well for your O level... we can stay here until u finish jc1
he said: hmmm.... can we stay here until i finish my A level? if you could still make it....
i said: when the time comes, we shall see what is the situation then and of coz we shall go for the best option
ben said he noes what to do and how to cut down on household expenditure... he is trying
i am glad i showed him the spreadsheet and roped him into brainstorming ideas
he wun spend unnecessary money from now on
i can try to squeeze some money out for a small endowment plan to help defray some future university costs.... i am realli trying
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
beautiful
last nite i shifted my desktop computer and table to next to the window in the living room.... wow i am so glad i did that coz now i am sitting here and before me is the beautiful scenery of rolling hills and matured trees...
think i can work better
Monday, 17 May 2010
tele-evangelists who con people's money
This is hilarious!!!
See Phil Collins and his two bandmates impersonate the greedy television evangelists in the USA. These programs are very common in America and I am glad somebody wrote such a song to speak out against false teachings. These so-called Christian evangelists are con-artists but their "prosperity gospels" are very popular and many people donate large sums of money to them. Well, the love of money is the root of all evils. In this video, you will see how the con-artists enrich themselves with the money. This is not just a fun video. The story portrayed here is all true.
I Hope this video helps in warning people against believing in "prosperity gospels" that if you give money, God will bless you financially and miraculously.
I am a Christian. I know it is wrong to dupe people, in the name of the Lord Jesus.
Jesus He knows me (Lyrics)
==========================
You see the face on the TV screen
coming at you every Sunday
see that face on the billboard
that man is me
On the cover of the magazine
there's no question why I'm smiling
you buy a piece of paradise
you get a piece of me
I'll get you everything you wanted
I'll get you everything you need
don't need to believe in hereafter
just believe in me
Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
and he's been telling me
everything is alright
I believe in the family
with my ever loving wife beside me
but she don't know about my girlfriend
or the man I met last night
Do you believe in God
cos that's what I'm selling
and if you wanna get to heaven
I'll see you right
You won't even have to leave your house
or get out of your chair
you don't even have to touch that dial
cos I'm everywhere
And Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright
Won't find me practising what I'm preaching
won't find me making no sacrifice
but I can get you a pocketful of miracles
if you promise to be good, try to be nice
God will take good care of you
just do as I say, don't do as I do
I'm counting my blessings,
I've found true happiness
cos I'm getting richer, day by day
you can find me in the phone book,
just call my toll free number
you can do it anyway you want
just do it right away
There'll be no doubt in your mind
you'll believe everything I'm saying
if you wanna get closer to him
get on your knees and start paying
Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright, alright
Jesus he knows me
Jesus he knows me, you know...
See Phil Collins and his two bandmates impersonate the greedy television evangelists in the USA. These programs are very common in America and I am glad somebody wrote such a song to speak out against false teachings. These so-called Christian evangelists are con-artists but their "prosperity gospels" are very popular and many people donate large sums of money to them. Well, the love of money is the root of all evils. In this video, you will see how the con-artists enrich themselves with the money. This is not just a fun video. The story portrayed here is all true.
I Hope this video helps in warning people against believing in "prosperity gospels" that if you give money, God will bless you financially and miraculously.
I am a Christian. I know it is wrong to dupe people, in the name of the Lord Jesus.
Jesus He knows me (Lyrics)
==========================
You see the face on the TV screen
coming at you every Sunday
see that face on the billboard
that man is me
On the cover of the magazine
there's no question why I'm smiling
you buy a piece of paradise
you get a piece of me
I'll get you everything you wanted
I'll get you everything you need
don't need to believe in hereafter
just believe in me
Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
and he's been telling me
everything is alright
I believe in the family
with my ever loving wife beside me
but she don't know about my girlfriend
or the man I met last night
Do you believe in God
cos that's what I'm selling
and if you wanna get to heaven
I'll see you right
You won't even have to leave your house
or get out of your chair
you don't even have to touch that dial
cos I'm everywhere
And Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright
Won't find me practising what I'm preaching
won't find me making no sacrifice
but I can get you a pocketful of miracles
if you promise to be good, try to be nice
God will take good care of you
just do as I say, don't do as I do
I'm counting my blessings,
I've found true happiness
cos I'm getting richer, day by day
you can find me in the phone book,
just call my toll free number
you can do it anyway you want
just do it right away
There'll be no doubt in your mind
you'll believe everything I'm saying
if you wanna get closer to him
get on your knees and start paying
Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright, alright
Jesus he knows me
Jesus he knows me, you know...
Sunday, 16 May 2010
Ben
A week ago, Ben sat down and tried making small talks with me. I wasn't ready to have these small chats (and I have been very edgy lately) because in the past, it all leads to him wanting me to buy new stuff for him... expensive stuff to be exact, well into the thousands of dollars. I have been so sick of all his demands and his "dreams" to own this and that, so naturally I was pushing him away. On top of all these pressures he has been giving me (he never gives up), I was feeling very bruised because every month, we are spending way beyond what we should and I am nervous - what if I have no money to pay the next few month's rent (we live in an upmarket district so that he can get on a direct bus to school.... see, I make all these sacrifices for him). So, his small chats with me only make me throw sarcastic remarks at him.
Now, Ben is a smart boy and he knows I have been real pissed with him and with everything else. I think he wanted to hear me say for certain why I am angry with him. So I did and I asked him what is actually wrong with him and his attitude. I asked him why he cannot put himself in my shoes and understand what I have to go through, blah blah, and that I am growing old and my energy is diminishing and would he want me to end up destitute and in my twilight years continue to slog for a living working in MacDonald's??? To be honest, I am so scared. I just wanted him to cooperate with me. We don't need to keep up with the Joneses.
There and then, he promised he would change and be a good boy and that he would also go to church every Sunday. I told him I am real skeptical because I have given him so many chances but his attitude had been very corky and negative.
This morning (Sunday), he woke up early (before me) and went to church!
I hope it portends more happy and positive things in the near future.
I don't mind working very work and making the necessary sacrifices all for the right reasons.
I am happy he understands.
Now, Ben is a smart boy and he knows I have been real pissed with him and with everything else. I think he wanted to hear me say for certain why I am angry with him. So I did and I asked him what is actually wrong with him and his attitude. I asked him why he cannot put himself in my shoes and understand what I have to go through, blah blah, and that I am growing old and my energy is diminishing and would he want me to end up destitute and in my twilight years continue to slog for a living working in MacDonald's??? To be honest, I am so scared. I just wanted him to cooperate with me. We don't need to keep up with the Joneses.
There and then, he promised he would change and be a good boy and that he would also go to church every Sunday. I told him I am real skeptical because I have given him so many chances but his attitude had been very corky and negative.
This morning (Sunday), he woke up early (before me) and went to church!
I hope it portends more happy and positive things in the near future.
I don't mind working very work and making the necessary sacrifices all for the right reasons.
I am happy he understands.
Thursday, 13 May 2010
Ladies and Gentlemen, introducing three legendary musicians....
BB KING, ERIC CLAPTON AND PHIL COLLINS
Song Title: The Thrill Is Gone
enjoy!!!!
Song Title: The Thrill Is Gone
enjoy!!!!
Wednesday, 12 May 2010
my music, my distraction, my love
from left to right:
epiphone alleykat, fender stratocastor and yamaha acoustic FG730S
(one more, a yamaha classical guitar not shown here)
vicious circle of life
almost everyday got the shitty feeling
work until so dulan
come home and still feel dulan
think about my mother also dulan
ah boy's attitude makes me damn dulan
and then think about tomorrow all the work i have to finish
f**king dulan
everyday every minute dulan
vicious circle of life
work until so dulan
come home and still feel dulan
think about my mother also dulan
ah boy's attitude makes me damn dulan
and then think about tomorrow all the work i have to finish
f**king dulan
everyday every minute dulan
vicious circle of life
Monday, 10 May 2010
blogging the blues away
on sunday nite, i get the monday morning blues.... hahaha... but what is so funny??? sigh
the working class, the underdogs...
we work harder
make it, make it
we will
the working class, the underdogs...
we work harder
make it, make it
we will
Saturday, 8 May 2010
Friday, 7 May 2010
Thursday, 6 May 2010
tuner and capo found!!!!
hurrah!!! found my tuner and capo
very tricky....... not so easy to locate them
look at the picture below and you can understand why:-
both my tuner and capo are kept inside a black case
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after thinking very hard, i was pretty sure it must still be somewhere in the living room
so i guess the only place would be the sofa area
my sofa set is made up of two pieces
the black case fell right into the gap
as it fell vertically upright on the floor between the two pieces, when i look under, it was hard to see it because it was black (which i had previously look under several times)
this time round, i was very very sure it must be there so i spread open the sofa set
presto! saw something black!
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now to avoid the same problem again as black is not a very obvious colour, i have changed to another case:-
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tuner, capo, pencil, eraser and some picks
very tricky....... not so easy to locate them
look at the picture below and you can understand why:-
both my tuner and capo are kept inside a black case
.jpg)
after thinking very hard, i was pretty sure it must still be somewhere in the living room
so i guess the only place would be the sofa area
my sofa set is made up of two pieces
the black case fell right into the gap
as it fell vertically upright on the floor between the two pieces, when i look under, it was hard to see it because it was black (which i had previously look under several times)
this time round, i was very very sure it must be there so i spread open the sofa set
presto! saw something black!
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now to avoid the same problem again as black is not a very obvious colour, i have changed to another case:-
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tuner, capo, pencil, eraser and some picks
Tuesday, 4 May 2010
wtf
very pissed
today purposely spent two hours searching high and low but still cannot find my guitar tuner and my beautiful red kyser capo
haven seen it for about 1-2 weeks
text kev my guitar teacher to ask him to check whether i left it at his place
he text back saying unlikely but he will still check
yesterday i was also pissed.... very very pissed
at mom's place there is a very old guitar which is in bad shape and not playable
but because mom is moving out and going to stay with my big brother H
she asked me to go fix it up
it belonged to my late dad and it is by now an abandoned "child"
as in, not properly stored (it's been kicked around, not even in a case), nobody polish it, and nobody gave it any shit at all nor want to play it
okie, so i noe where to find some luthiers to get it fixed
i called mom (after checking out one luthier) and told her i will get it up to a playable condition
she was so happy and asked me to pick it up from her
and since it is going to be restored to a playable condition, i might as well take possession and give it tender loving care and of coz , use it and play it!!!!
guess what my mom said to me:
she wants me to restore it and then she will give it to my youngest brother J
i dun believe this!!!!!!
look here, i am the guitar player not him!!!!!
he plays the sax!!!!
well this guitar is a vintage electric semi hollow with two f-holes and of coz after restoration it will become somewhat a collectible, actualli by virtue of its age, built and era, it is already a relic (not gibson lah, otherwise my bl***y brother would have brought it to HK long time ago.. that's where he is living permanently now)
wat LJ thing to say to me that after i restore it, she will give it to my brother J!!!!
well, she said that if he does not want it, then i can have it
ok fine, i said, f***, i am not going to spend time restoring it... it is not going to be that easy either because i have to go back and forth, also find a case to transport and store it, test and check, etc... if he wants it, he can go and restore it himself
and there was an argument between me and my mom over the phone
well, i called my sister and she said, yes it belong to my brother J (my dad will his possession to my brother J) but i said, the guitar is already an abandoned child and since he could not be bothered to do anything to it or bring it to HK... i am ok if mom wants to keep it after i restore it but i dun agree it should go to HK with my brother J after i put in time and effort to bring it up to a playable condition, afterall I AM the guitar player but my sister said, just dun do anything, leave it
F*** F*** F***
today purposely spent two hours searching high and low but still cannot find my guitar tuner and my beautiful red kyser capo
haven seen it for about 1-2 weeks
text kev my guitar teacher to ask him to check whether i left it at his place
he text back saying unlikely but he will still check
yesterday i was also pissed.... very very pissed
at mom's place there is a very old guitar which is in bad shape and not playable
but because mom is moving out and going to stay with my big brother H
she asked me to go fix it up
it belonged to my late dad and it is by now an abandoned "child"
as in, not properly stored (it's been kicked around, not even in a case), nobody polish it, and nobody gave it any shit at all nor want to play it
okie, so i noe where to find some luthiers to get it fixed
i called mom (after checking out one luthier) and told her i will get it up to a playable condition
she was so happy and asked me to pick it up from her
and since it is going to be restored to a playable condition, i might as well take possession and give it tender loving care and of coz , use it and play it!!!!
guess what my mom said to me:
she wants me to restore it and then she will give it to my youngest brother J
i dun believe this!!!!!!
look here, i am the guitar player not him!!!!!
he plays the sax!!!!
well this guitar is a vintage electric semi hollow with two f-holes and of coz after restoration it will become somewhat a collectible, actualli by virtue of its age, built and era, it is already a relic (not gibson lah, otherwise my bl***y brother would have brought it to HK long time ago.. that's where he is living permanently now)
wat LJ thing to say to me that after i restore it, she will give it to my brother J!!!!
well, she said that if he does not want it, then i can have it
ok fine, i said, f***, i am not going to spend time restoring it... it is not going to be that easy either because i have to go back and forth, also find a case to transport and store it, test and check, etc... if he wants it, he can go and restore it himself
and there was an argument between me and my mom over the phone
well, i called my sister and she said, yes it belong to my brother J (my dad will his possession to my brother J) but i said, the guitar is already an abandoned child and since he could not be bothered to do anything to it or bring it to HK... i am ok if mom wants to keep it after i restore it but i dun agree it should go to HK with my brother J after i put in time and effort to bring it up to a playable condition, afterall I AM the guitar player but my sister said, just dun do anything, leave it
F*** F*** F***
Monday, 3 May 2010
phil collins - in the air tonight
i luv phil collins... i realli luv this guy
legendary in every way
world class drummer
unique voice
songwriter who can express emotions so well
he performed In The Air Tonight many times but this video may be one of the best live performances he ever gave
the song begins with a hypnotic beat and climaxes with phil on the drums and singing his heart out
i am so going to learn how to play the drums
updated on 4 May 2010
i found one more vid
this one is equally awesome and haunting
just look at the crowd
from the time phil hits the drums at the exact moment until the end of the song, i just stop breathing... it is that entralling
phil collins is a multi-talented genius
read the interesting story behind this song and how the sound was created:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/In_the_air_tonight
legendary in every way
world class drummer
unique voice
songwriter who can express emotions so well
he performed In The Air Tonight many times but this video may be one of the best live performances he ever gave
the song begins with a hypnotic beat and climaxes with phil on the drums and singing his heart out
i am so going to learn how to play the drums
updated on 4 May 2010
i found one more vid
this one is equally awesome and haunting
just look at the crowd
from the time phil hits the drums at the exact moment until the end of the song, i just stop breathing... it is that entralling
phil collins is a multi-talented genius
read the interesting story behind this song and how the sound was created:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/In_the_air_tonight
Saturday, 1 May 2010
retribution - fact or fiction?
work can get so shitty and dreadful *shake head*
some ppl so @!^%$*&@(#!!!!! (i leave that to your imagination)
nvm, one day he get retribution lah, honest i noe this does happen
deja vu, one time, i was so upset with somebody becoz she was so f****** ngiao, she wants like this like this, like that like that, so one fine day i exploded and screeeaaaamm at her! guess wat, a week later retribution happened to me, i was screamed at by a difficult, unreasonable client, for 8 f****** hours!!!! not onli that, i think i lost an account prolly forever (actualli i also dun care or mind coz it was too time-consuming and full of nonsense)
since then, i have learned that what goes around comes around and do to ppl wat u wan ppl to do to you (the latter is from the bible)... it has made me more human and more considerate for others that no matter how shitty some ppl treat me, i must remain constant
i am grateful for life's real lesson
some ppl so @!^%$*&@(#!!!!! (i leave that to your imagination)
nvm, one day he get retribution lah, honest i noe this does happen
deja vu, one time, i was so upset with somebody becoz she was so f****** ngiao, she wants like this like this, like that like that, so one fine day i exploded and screeeaaaamm at her! guess wat, a week later retribution happened to me, i was screamed at by a difficult, unreasonable client, for 8 f****** hours!!!! not onli that, i think i lost an account prolly forever (actualli i also dun care or mind coz it was too time-consuming and full of nonsense)
since then, i have learned that what goes around comes around and do to ppl wat u wan ppl to do to you (the latter is from the bible)... it has made me more human and more considerate for others that no matter how shitty some ppl treat me, i must remain constant
i am grateful for life's real lesson
Thursday, 29 April 2010
money no enough
Yesterday evening, I got back my car from the workshop.
My heart was in pain when I saw the bill............. $863!!!!
These are the things done:
1. car servicing the works... engine oil, air filter, oil filter, 4 pcs spark plugs
2. 2 pcs shock absorbers
3. repair and respray partial body
4. repair side door upholstery
The body work was very well done. I am very happy with it.
I feel very poor today.
I am going to work hard hard and make back the money!
Next on my plan is to do business space project marketing. Yay! Looking forward to make lots and lots of money, yay yay yay!!!!
My heart was in pain when I saw the bill............. $863!!!!
These are the things done:
1. car servicing the works... engine oil, air filter, oil filter, 4 pcs spark plugs
2. 2 pcs shock absorbers
3. repair and respray partial body
4. repair side door upholstery
The body work was very well done. I am very happy with it.
I feel very poor today.
I am going to work hard hard and make back the money!
Next on my plan is to do business space project marketing. Yay! Looking forward to make lots and lots of money, yay yay yay!!!!
The Lost Dr. Seuss Poem
I found this somewhere. Not too sure if this was from one of Dr. Seuss's books (you know, Cat in the Hat author?)
Anywayz, I am so tickled by it. So, I'll share it with you here.
I Love My Job
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I love my job. I love the pay!
I love it more and more each day.
I love my boss, he is the best!
I love his boss and all the rest.
I love my office and its location. I hate to have to go on vacation.
I love my furniture, drab and grey, and piles of paper that grow each day!
I think my job is really swell, there's nothing else I love so well.
I love to work among my peers, I love their leers and jeers and sneers.
I love my computer and its software; I hug it often though it won't care.
I love each program and every file, I'd love them more if they worked a while.
I'm happy to be here. I am. I am.
I'm the happiest slave of the Firm, I am.
I love this work. I love these chores.
I love the meetings with deadly bores.
I love my job - I'll say it again - I even love those friendly men.
Those friendly men who've come today, in clean white coats to take me away!!!
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
new spider web lines
I think it is important to have this map because it is now getting too confusing when you read newspaper or hear news on tv about this new line, that new line, simi simi circle line blah blah.... wah super super lost! So I went and researched for a map that gives me the full picture. Actually, I was trying to find the line that I remember reading about, the bt timah line. I remember reading tan kah kee station, king albert park station but dunno why I googled but can't find anything about these stations on the web. Anywayz, I found two very useful maps:-
http://www.singaporepropertymarket.com/future_mrt_lrt_system_map.htm
http://files.lesterchan.net/viewing/images/Singapore_mrt_lrt_system_map_future.png/
Both maps got slight difference. I printed out both maps in colour for reference because they are useful for my work. Likewise, it is useful for you too if you know for example a new station is going to be built in your housing estate vicinity, your property value may go up (in the near future)!
Happy analyzing these colourful spider webs!
http://www.singaporepropertymarket.com/future_mrt_lrt_system_map.htm
http://files.lesterchan.net/viewing/images/Singapore_mrt_lrt_system_map_future.png/
Both maps got slight difference. I printed out both maps in colour for reference because they are useful for my work. Likewise, it is useful for you too if you know for example a new station is going to be built in your housing estate vicinity, your property value may go up (in the near future)!
Happy analyzing these colourful spider webs!
first post
I missed blogging but I dowan to continue using my old blog.
I wanna start new......... a new beginning, new ideas, new hopes, new everything.
Let the past be the past.
This is the new ah mo.
This will be my new diary where I record interesting events and sometimes bad events.
Two of the things I have been very passionate about lately are my guitar music and my fitness workout (gym and swimming). I am going to post alot of these stuffs here.
Life is full of hopes and life is what I make it out to be (I always believe in that.)
Ah Mo is a strong gal.
Ah Mo can take a lot of shit.
Ah Mo always bounce back.
Everything Ah Mo can!
I wanna start new......... a new beginning, new ideas, new hopes, new everything.
Let the past be the past.
This is the new ah mo.
This will be my new diary where I record interesting events and sometimes bad events.
Two of the things I have been very passionate about lately are my guitar music and my fitness workout (gym and swimming). I am going to post alot of these stuffs here.
Life is full of hopes and life is what I make it out to be (I always believe in that.)
Ah Mo is a strong gal.
Ah Mo can take a lot of shit.
Ah Mo always bounce back.
Everything Ah Mo can!
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