emo and lazy

I do enjoy reading blogs. Those blogs I read and the bloggers behind them come across as intelligent, observant and witty whereas I am sure if anybody is reading mine, will think, "Aiyoh this ahmo must be quite a boring simpleton and an emo-wreck!" I dunno, maybe I have lost the zest for life. I do admit my blog is boring.

Yes, I have been emo-ing quite a bit lately. I had to apologize to Meng recently because I realised I have been using him as a sounding-board. He complained that I had been blaming him too much. I felt frustrated because of the high prices of HDB flats. I want to buy a 4rm HDB flat. I am very comfortable to be around the region of clementi-sunset way-ulu pandan-king albert park and I want to continue living in this area. The more research I do, the more I get so frightened! Kaozzz so damn expensive leh! Think Meng has tried to be as sweet to me as he can be and has offered his cpf funds and monthly cpf contribution as payments for the flat but somehow, I am really not ready for it. I feel I should buy my own flat and keep it as a heritage for my ah boy. Of course, HDB regulation says two friends can co-own a flat, but still, I don't feel it is the right time for this now. Poor Meng has been suffering verbal assault and psychological torment from me and yet still keep his trap shut! Damn steady!

Thank God that I signed a two years lease on this beautiful condo ah boy and me are living in right now. When I checked the rental prices of HDB flats in the nearby areas, they are at least $2k or more! I panicked! What if we have to pay for higher rentals after our lease expires? We have to quickly find a flat to buy to hedge against rising rentals. The more I worry, the more stressed and upset I get. And poor Meng is a very convenient goat......

Okie I am not going to get stressed up over the BUSINESS of living. I am going to learn how to live and maxed it out. It is tough but worth a try again.... and again.

I must learn to be:-

happy

contented

humble

kind

strong yet gentle

tough but not vengeful

sincere

and above all

always carry a thankful heart and in gratitude to God for everything

Company is organising a phuket trip (but must co-pay). I already told them I am not going coz it is in the midst of ah boy's O level exams. I better be around to give moral support and provide nourishment and food whilst he prepares and sits for his exams. I asked him and he said, "Yes please don't go...."

Yesterday, I was at Bukit Timah Plaza NTUC Fairprice and I saw an interesting ad on their notice board by a organisation known as the Singapore International Festival Chorus. They are recruiting volunteer singers. If you like singing but don't have formal musical training, you are still welcomed. I went to their website and found out that they do classics such as those by Mozart and I think also Haydn, along with more contemporary repertoire. The practice venue is at dover road inside UWC. Check this out: www. singaporeifc.org/about

I have been saying and saying but I haven't started playing the drums yet. I had planned to self-learn from youtube and websites but shit, I am still procrastinating. I want to be able to drum ala phil collins, songs such as In The Air Tonight, Billy Don't You Lose My Number, etc.

The stupid Manila Bus Hostage-Hijack is very tragic. 8 deaths and somemore today in the tabloids got pictures of the victims' coffins being opened by the funeral parlour people for the paparazzees to snap. Gosh, the power of money. No class. And the hopeless police who are haphazard in their rescue operation. There was a report that the authorities should have disabled TV media coverage as the hijacker was able to monitor the whole police "circus" on the tv set inside the bus. Jialat man, like this they are killing off tourism instantly. Who still dares to visit philippines now??? The police cannot even do a proper job of protecting people's lives.

Tomorrow is tgif. I think I will go and swim in the pool downstairs, that is, if I am not lazy, haha. Or even go to the gym, if I am really not lazy, haha.

I must get rid of my tummy fats. It is building up. Soon they may call me the michelin mom? Just like china has the michelin baby, Singapore has me the michelin mom hahaha.... I should do sit ups but I am so lazy.... *piak piak own face*

Better go now and wash up and sleep early. It's been a long day.