i think facebook is hopeless.......... i think i may delete off my facebook account.... i don't see my "friends" writing very interesting or funny stuff.... maybe when you are all grown up, you are more inhibited or you truly hide your feelings behind that pretty picture you post on your facebook, afraid of people discovering who you really are or what a prick you are to your friends, whatever........... hahaha, let me tell you a secret, i love reading my ah boy's facebook page whenever he forgets to sign out.... children! they say the most straight-in-your-face disgustingly funny stuff to their friends, and they also make fun of themselves alot and give themselves funny middle names
i am going broke, honest
i am going fat.......... fret not, i told myself the moment i reach the point of the unbearable likeness of being, i will move into action.......... e.g swim, jog, run, gym, roller-blade, golf, etc etc
my eldest sister is recuperating from surgery and i sincerely hope she recovers quickly
i am sleepy and tired as i didn't get enough sleep last nite
boy, is my life getting too boring??? sat nite and i am sitting in front of my computer and meng has just told me he is going out for a little while to be with the guys and will be back at 2 am.... i told him i am going to bed soon
Saturday, 28 August 2010
Friday, 27 August 2010
tgif one more time
an hour ago, i was screamed and shouted at on the phone by a client who is also my fren
she is known to be a difficult person
amazingly i am still so calm and cheerful
i told myself to remain humble and to talk gently with her
i declare again, today WILL BE a happy day
she is known to be a difficult person
amazingly i am still so calm and cheerful
i told myself to remain humble and to talk gently with her
i declare again, today WILL BE a happy day
Thursday, 26 August 2010
emo and lazy
I do enjoy reading blogs. Those blogs I read and the bloggers behind them come across as intelligent, observant and witty whereas I am sure if anybody is reading mine, will think, "Aiyoh this ahmo must be quite a boring simpleton and an emo-wreck!" I dunno, maybe I have lost the zest for life. I do admit my blog is boring.
Yes, I have been emo-ing quite a bit lately. I had to apologize to Meng recently because I realised I have been using him as a sounding-board. He complained that I had been blaming him too much. I felt frustrated because of the high prices of HDB flats. I want to buy a 4rm HDB flat. I am very comfortable to be around the region of clementi-sunset way-ulu pandan-king albert park and I want to continue living in this area. The more research I do, the more I get so frightened! Kaozzz so damn expensive leh! Think Meng has tried to be as sweet to me as he can be and has offered his cpf funds and monthly cpf contribution as payments for the flat but somehow, I am really not ready for it. I feel I should buy my own flat and keep it as a heritage for my ah boy. Of course, HDB regulation says two friends can co-own a flat, but still, I don't feel it is the right time for this now. Poor Meng has been suffering verbal assault and psychological torment from me and yet still keep his trap shut! Damn steady!
Thank God that I signed a two years lease on this beautiful condo ah boy and me are living in right now. When I checked the rental prices of HDB flats in the nearby areas, they are at least $2k or more! I panicked! What if we have to pay for higher rentals after our lease expires? We have to quickly find a flat to buy to hedge against rising rentals. The more I worry, the more stressed and upset I get. And poor Meng is a very convenient goat......
Okie I am not going to get stressed up over the BUSINESS of living. I am going to learn how to live and maxed it out. It is tough but worth a try again.... and again.
I must learn to be:-
happy
contented
humble
kind
strong yet gentle
tough but not vengeful
sincere
and above all
always carry a thankful heart and in gratitude to God for everything
Company is organising a phuket trip (but must co-pay). I already told them I am not going coz it is in the midst of ah boy's O level exams. I better be around to give moral support and provide nourishment and food whilst he prepares and sits for his exams. I asked him and he said, "Yes please don't go...."
Yesterday, I was at Bukit Timah Plaza NTUC Fairprice and I saw an interesting ad on their notice board by a organisation known as the Singapore International Festival Chorus. They are recruiting volunteer singers. If you like singing but don't have formal musical training, you are still welcomed. I went to their website and found out that they do classics such as those by Mozart and I think also Haydn, along with more contemporary repertoire. The practice venue is at dover road inside UWC. Check this out: www. singaporeifc.org/about
I have been saying and saying but I haven't started playing the drums yet. I had planned to self-learn from youtube and websites but shit, I am still procrastinating. I want to be able to drum ala phil collins, songs such as In The Air Tonight, Billy Don't You Lose My Number, etc.
The stupid Manila Bus Hostage-Hijack is very tragic. 8 deaths and somemore today in the tabloids got pictures of the victims' coffins being opened by the funeral parlour people for the paparazzees to snap. Gosh, the power of money. No class. And the hopeless police who are haphazard in their rescue operation. There was a report that the authorities should have disabled TV media coverage as the hijacker was able to monitor the whole police "circus" on the tv set inside the bus. Jialat man, like this they are killing off tourism instantly. Who still dares to visit philippines now??? The police cannot even do a proper job of protecting people's lives.
Tomorrow is tgif. I think I will go and swim in the pool downstairs, that is, if I am not lazy, haha. Or even go to the gym, if I am really not lazy, haha.
I must get rid of my tummy fats. It is building up. Soon they may call me the michelin mom? Just like china has the michelin baby, Singapore has me the michelin mom hahaha.... I should do sit ups but I am so lazy.... *piak piak own face*
Better go now and wash up and sleep early. It's been a long day.
Yes, I have been emo-ing quite a bit lately. I had to apologize to Meng recently because I realised I have been using him as a sounding-board. He complained that I had been blaming him too much. I felt frustrated because of the high prices of HDB flats. I want to buy a 4rm HDB flat. I am very comfortable to be around the region of clementi-sunset way-ulu pandan-king albert park and I want to continue living in this area. The more research I do, the more I get so frightened! Kaozzz so damn expensive leh! Think Meng has tried to be as sweet to me as he can be and has offered his cpf funds and monthly cpf contribution as payments for the flat but somehow, I am really not ready for it. I feel I should buy my own flat and keep it as a heritage for my ah boy. Of course, HDB regulation says two friends can co-own a flat, but still, I don't feel it is the right time for this now. Poor Meng has been suffering verbal assault and psychological torment from me and yet still keep his trap shut! Damn steady!
Thank God that I signed a two years lease on this beautiful condo ah boy and me are living in right now. When I checked the rental prices of HDB flats in the nearby areas, they are at least $2k or more! I panicked! What if we have to pay for higher rentals after our lease expires? We have to quickly find a flat to buy to hedge against rising rentals. The more I worry, the more stressed and upset I get. And poor Meng is a very convenient goat......
Okie I am not going to get stressed up over the BUSINESS of living. I am going to learn how to live and maxed it out. It is tough but worth a try again.... and again.
I must learn to be:-
happy
contented
humble
kind
strong yet gentle
tough but not vengeful
sincere
and above all
always carry a thankful heart and in gratitude to God for everything
Company is organising a phuket trip (but must co-pay). I already told them I am not going coz it is in the midst of ah boy's O level exams. I better be around to give moral support and provide nourishment and food whilst he prepares and sits for his exams. I asked him and he said, "Yes please don't go...."
Yesterday, I was at Bukit Timah Plaza NTUC Fairprice and I saw an interesting ad on their notice board by a organisation known as the Singapore International Festival Chorus. They are recruiting volunteer singers. If you like singing but don't have formal musical training, you are still welcomed. I went to their website and found out that they do classics such as those by Mozart and I think also Haydn, along with more contemporary repertoire. The practice venue is at dover road inside UWC. Check this out: www. singaporeifc.org/about
I have been saying and saying but I haven't started playing the drums yet. I had planned to self-learn from youtube and websites but shit, I am still procrastinating. I want to be able to drum ala phil collins, songs such as In The Air Tonight, Billy Don't You Lose My Number, etc.
The stupid Manila Bus Hostage-Hijack is very tragic. 8 deaths and somemore today in the tabloids got pictures of the victims' coffins being opened by the funeral parlour people for the paparazzees to snap. Gosh, the power of money. No class. And the hopeless police who are haphazard in their rescue operation. There was a report that the authorities should have disabled TV media coverage as the hijacker was able to monitor the whole police "circus" on the tv set inside the bus. Jialat man, like this they are killing off tourism instantly. Who still dares to visit philippines now??? The police cannot even do a proper job of protecting people's lives.
Tomorrow is tgif. I think I will go and swim in the pool downstairs, that is, if I am not lazy, haha. Or even go to the gym, if I am really not lazy, haha.
I must get rid of my tummy fats. It is building up. Soon they may call me the michelin mom? Just like china has the michelin baby, Singapore has me the michelin mom hahaha.... I should do sit ups but I am so lazy.... *piak piak own face*
Better go now and wash up and sleep early. It's been a long day.
Monday, 23 August 2010
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
madness
I need to calm down, to remind myself there is no need to worry too much, that many times problems have its own ways of solving by itself without my doing anything about it. Isn't that true in many instances?
I have been looking at hdb flats to buy. I feel so disheartened. The COV (cash over valuation) is getting very ridiculous. How on earth am I going to afford to buy a flat now? I am not even talking about wanting a nicely renovated flat or a high floor unit. In fact, my requirements defy all norms. I don't mind the 3rd or the 4th floor. I like the west sun. Yes I actually like the western sun shining into the flat. I don't mind the road noise. I don't need a renovated unit as I am going to renovate it myself to my liking. But I want the flat to be located in a nice surrounding. I don't want it in a shabby and old estate. So I am prepared to go further from the matured estates. With such low end requirments, I still find it difficult to find a flat. Meanwhile, I see the prices going up up up! Isn't that scary?
Meanwhile, my work is getting more challenging day by day. Clients are becoming more and more difficult as in f--king bitchy. Even my own friends can be equally f--ked up when it comes to money and doing business. What is the world coming to? I shake my head. I asked myself, why on earth am I still so loyal to my friends and always thinking about their interests first? Nobody it seems put others first before themselves anymore. This is the wild world. I should start protecting myself and think more selfishly.
I have been looking at hdb flats to buy. I feel so disheartened. The COV (cash over valuation) is getting very ridiculous. How on earth am I going to afford to buy a flat now? I am not even talking about wanting a nicely renovated flat or a high floor unit. In fact, my requirements defy all norms. I don't mind the 3rd or the 4th floor. I like the west sun. Yes I actually like the western sun shining into the flat. I don't mind the road noise. I don't need a renovated unit as I am going to renovate it myself to my liking. But I want the flat to be located in a nice surrounding. I don't want it in a shabby and old estate. So I am prepared to go further from the matured estates. With such low end requirments, I still find it difficult to find a flat. Meanwhile, I see the prices going up up up! Isn't that scary?
Meanwhile, my work is getting more challenging day by day. Clients are becoming more and more difficult as in f--king bitchy. Even my own friends can be equally f--ked up when it comes to money and doing business. What is the world coming to? I shake my head. I asked myself, why on earth am I still so loyal to my friends and always thinking about their interests first? Nobody it seems put others first before themselves anymore. This is the wild world. I should start protecting myself and think more selfishly.
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
drowning.... who will save me?
feeling as if swimming alone in a big ocean
barely keeping afloat
just me and a stray wooden plank
awww i am getting so tired
my arms are becoming weak
in times like this, i feel like kicking him out of my life
he is of no help
i struggle mostly alone
that's why me and my guitar are good pals
i sing and IT accompanies me
together we make sweet music
and momentarily
i am happy
barely keeping afloat
just me and a stray wooden plank
awww i am getting so tired
my arms are becoming weak
in times like this, i feel like kicking him out of my life
he is of no help
i struggle mostly alone
that's why me and my guitar are good pals
i sing and IT accompanies me
together we make sweet music
and momentarily
i am happy
whimsical wish list
i am thankful for being able to come this far and i am so grateful for life's opportunities that came my way
however i have this feeling......
feeling like time is running out... there are still many things i wan to achieve and do .... here goes:
1. own a mercedes coupe
2. buy an apartment along bt timah or upp bt timah
3. learn to play the drums (i am ready for it now.... drummers out there, share tips with me pls!)
timeline: 3-5 years for no. 1 and 1-3 years for no. 2 and 3
dun slam me yet......... i think it is better to have a dream then to live aimlessly
however i have this feeling......
feeling like time is running out... there are still many things i wan to achieve and do .... here goes:
1. own a mercedes coupe
2. buy an apartment along bt timah or upp bt timah
3. learn to play the drums (i am ready for it now.... drummers out there, share tips with me pls!)
timeline: 3-5 years for no. 1 and 1-3 years for no. 2 and 3
dun slam me yet......... i think it is better to have a dream then to live aimlessly
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